Memories

2011-01-16T11:51:00.000-08:00

CLOSED!

MOVED TO: http://antonology.blogspot.com/

2011-01-15T12:13:00.000-08:00

Wolves love lambs like lovers love their loves
-anonymous

True love are like ghost; many talked about it but only few have seen it
-anonymous

2010-12-24T10:03:00.000-08:00

Caroling was fun! It's definitely a great experience! Though it's my 1st time caroling and I made many mistakes, singing in a choir with people older than me was really enjoyable! Haha... Yup... I'm in an external choir called The Graduate Singers (TGS)... It's an affiliated choir from NUS choir so people there are naturally older... At 1st I thought it would be stressful but I turned out that the people are crazy and fun people too! Singing with them definitely helped me to improve in my singing and also help me build up more confidence... Just that I feel odd when they say that TGS are graduate singers from the NUS... Haha... Anw... Caroling again tmr... Bet it's gonna be as fun!

Well today is Christmas... Just wanna wish people readin this blog a very merry Christmas and a happy new year (though I know I'm the only idiot who blogs and read this)...

Oh yea... Urm...
I apologize for the harassment...
As I've said...
I promise that I won't bring up the topic anymore...
I'm a man of my words...
If you wan me to go to the extreme also can...
I can disappear from your life...
Just let me know if you wan me to...

Finally... Wish you would stay happy and cheerful!
Cheers and bye...

2010-12-20T08:45:00.000-08:00

Countdown: 95hrs to christmas (and to that)

Well... I think the answer is obvious...
But just take this last 95hrs to reconsider...
If you wont change your mind, i wont force you...

Sorry for all the harassment...
Maybe i just dont know you well...

Just give me your final say on that day...
And i promise, swear if i must, that i wont bring this topic up ever again...

2010-12-18T10:17:00.000-08:00

FAILURE!!!!!
I M A FAILURE!!!!!
Nothing i've done is perfect...
Nothing i've done has gone right...
Nothing i've plan worked...
Everything in my life is screwed!

Even the simplest thing...
Simple things like managing my own life...
I FREAKING MESS UP!!!
I LEFT YOU ALONE... THAT WAS MY BIG MISTAKE...
NOW MY WORLD IS UPSIDE-DOWN...

So wat if im a perfectionist?
Nothing that i do is near perfect...
Its like almost to the point of being imperfect!
That's me...
A COMPLETE FAILURE...

Sorry... Very disappointed with myself...
That's all...

Will you be there when i needed you most?
Cos i need you now...

2010-12-16T17:24:00.000-08:00

Sorry for being MIA fo so long... Had many things to do... Had to juggle work, choir and personal stuff all at once... Anyway... This month I'll be caroling for Christmas at raffles republic plaza on the 24 and 25... But I've not learn all the songs yet... Do you think I can pull through? Many things happened this few days... And I could tell many things happened for you too... I would love to know more bout it... But I don't think I can for now... You'll wait for me right? You better... XD

Anw... Taking off from 20-25 dec... Anyone free to hangout drop a hint and I'll try to plan it... Haha... Wanted to do many things this month but much have not been accomplished.. Haiz...

Days may pass
And you may not hear from me
But always rmb that
Each day and nite
Clear or cloudy
You would always be on my mind...

It's time like this when I think of you
And wonder if you'd ever think of me...

2010-12-08T09:48:00.000-08:00

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

-爱上你 by2

是的。
想念和怀念是比失去还难受。
但没其他选着。。。

Man I suck!

2010-12-07T02:14:00.000-08:00

Am I too much?
Am i very self-centered?
Do you feel that I'm not considering your feeling?
Do you think I'm selfish?

But I just...
It's still a wish...
Hope to have a reply by Christmas...
Can you think it through?
Just ignore those things that you think you're lacking...
Not everyone is perfect...
Not even a perfectionist...
Have more confidence...
And I'm looking forward to 25th Dec...

2010-12-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

If it's wat i wan, i'm more than willing to invest all the time i can spare...
Its just lacking that 1 thing from you...
Give me a chance and we'll see if its false hope or not...
Unless i have no place in your heart... Nowhere to be found in there...
Strangers or not... Its definitely not...
I wont let that happen!

Let's give it a try... Come on...

2010-12-04T08:31:00.000-08:00

Hmm... Suddenly i dont think im the cut for being a choralist... Its like after so long of not singing, trying to sing using technique and listen to my own voice while in a choir seems difficult...
Actually i felt quite lost now... Everything that i wan to do, i cant do it... That's just no motivation... There's no you... I think you're that motivation that im lacking...
Its like i wanted to sing well and i cant... I wanted to practice coin sleights and become a coinster but i cant... I wanted to join TGS for choraling but i dont think i can... I wanted to have a stage routine but i cant... I wanted to end everyday with a neutral feeling but i cant too...

I feel hopeless...

Its not false hope...
Even if it is, its something that i wanted...
At least give me some hope...
Just give me a chance and i'll prove it to you...
I know that there are many things that i dont know about you...
But im really willing to spend time understandering you...
Nobody's perfect in this world...
We are called human cos we have some imperfection...
But there are also people who sees the imperfection in others as 'i m perfect'...
We can change and compromise...
The question is 'is there the chance to?'
Unless im not someone who's up to your standard...
If so... Let me know wat im lacking and i'll change...
Serious...

P.S.: Wat do you hate? Me? Oo?

2010-12-03T08:34:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to say today... Just really curious on who you are refering to... Really hope my christmas wish can come true...

I guess i think too much...
But that doesn't change my feelings for you...
I dont know why...
But i just dont have the courage to ask you...
Im not as good as i seems...
I only dare to ask one thing from you...
Would you give me a chance?

2010-12-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging... (Astatine-me, Radium-you) [Check periodic table and you'll get it]

Today was rather tiring... Supposed to wake up by 8am (actually i did but i laze in bed till 9am)... Met junji at 10 plus (supposingly 9.30) cos i delayed too much... Well i wasn't well known for being late for nothing... XD
Yea... Than went off for my 3rd part-time job... Im actually quite surprise at myself... Im currently holding 3 jobs; packer @ Pantos Log, Service Asst @ Isetan and Flyer distributor... Lol! But i still like the Isetan job the most! Haha...
Anyway... Distributed flyers door-to-door today from 11am to around 4pm... Got scared by 3 freaking dogs (1 lagger though)... The lagger dog was called lagger cos when i approach the door, it did not do anything... After i walk away for about 2 meters, it started barking like no business... Dotzttm...
Anyway... After our job rushed home and changed... Rushed to Bishan for movie with junji and gang... Watched 'Hello Stranger'... Although i dont understand the language (the subtitles really helped), i quite enjoyed the movie... Quite touching... I actually saw some part of my life showing up in the movie itself... You (yes you) should go catch it when possible... Hehe

Well thats all for now... Got work tmr... Bye~

Urm... Im not sure if im thinking too much...
But is the msg on your blog directed to me?
If so... Let me tell you this from the bottom of my heart (I apologise if its harsh)...
Well... Whether its worthy or not isn't really for you to say...
My decision was made due to feelings and not whether its worthy or not...
I know we've only met at most thrice and only talk twice...
But if you could give me the chance, i wanna get to know you better...
Im willing to spend most of my time understanding you...
All you have to do is to give me a chance and be more optimistic about yourself...
Radium (code)... Pls think thru it... If you have the answer pls let me know via sms... Thx

P.S: For code name... Refer to the hidden words after the 1st line
P.P.S: Who's oxidising agent (Abit nosy here XD)
P.P.P.S: Hang out some day leh... Catch a movie than go see sunset?

2010-11-29T05:21:00.000-08:00

Wow... Since August this blog is dead... Time to revive it liao... But idk if there's anyone reading this... You... Yes you... The one reading this and smiling... Can you do me a favour by commenting on the tagboard? Just say something so i know that is at least a soul reading it... If not it'll just be my online dairy than...

Well... Been busy after Os... Started working the week after the last paper... Didn't really have a break... Though im not in serious need of money, i just dont feel like slacking at home too much... Also... I've attended the first few practice of NYJChoir... Was fun... Well sorta... Kenna diao-ed on the 1st day... Even have video of how stupid i look... Lol... Will upload once i find it... Anyway... For choralist out there, next year's syf set piece is relatively easy so the judging will be very (to the power of very) strict... JYS!!!

Oh ya... Christmas is around the corner... Haven but gifts yet... Wat should i get for ......? Hmm... Need some planning to do... Anyway... Heard that JJ's latest album will be out in dec so if anyone wants to buy something for me... That's a suggestion... Actually i dont really have much wishes... Just one and one only... Haiz...

Thats all for now... Merry (super) advance christmas!

I wonder if you'll read this...
But i wanna let you know this...
My feeling for you hasn't change...
Eventhough i said it did...
It was a white lie...
My wishlist for this year's christmas is a simple yet complicated phrase...
Simple cos its easy to dream...
Complicated cos i know it'll nv happen...
That is:
'I wanna be with you'
You should know who you are...
Its a wish... That i long for............

2010-08-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

精灵
词:林秋离曲 :林俊杰

月光下的你沉默而孤单
挺直的脊梁和瘦削的肩膀
眼里的迷惘
影子的苍凉
夜雾茫茫

可以对着你一整个晚上
什么都不说数着呼吸幻想
想着真实的你到底怎样
怎么坚强

但爱轻悄悄的追来的不露痕迹
化成一件外衣
披上眼前的你我思念到了底
就一直逗留在你心里

因为我遇见你像一场虚拟的游戏
我认识你也只是网路上一段讯息
你若不在我的脑海
就一片空白
因为我不停猜想你的心思你的脸
模拟着和你见面走在一起的画面
我会等待你能接受
这么爱

但爱轻悄悄的追来的不露痕迹
化成一件外衣
披上眼前的你我思念到了底
就一直逗留在你心里

因为我遇见你像一场虚拟的游戏
我认识你也只是网路上一段讯息
你若不在我的脑海
就一片空白
因为我不停猜想你的心思你的脸
模拟着和你见面走在一起的画面
我会等待你能接受
这么爱

我很想你，你呢？

DIE!

2010-05-31T03:06:00.001-07:00

Back to update blog... Reason: Today's a special day...
Why today's a special day? Because today is the worse day of my life so far!

1st: Sort of screwed Os chi paper... Compre was @#%$&* hard!!! But my frenz say they were ez... Am i too dumb or are they too smart? Think is the 1st 1...

2nd: Got back my report book... RESULTS SUX MAN!!! Even though position is the same, but i failed 2 subjects and overall percentage decreased by almost 5%!!! @#$%*&

Thats it man... Gotta go one corner and emo le... Bye~

Im gear up and ready for you...
But are you?

2010-03-17T22:01:00.000-07:00

It has happened...
Everything went wrong...
Its not the same anymore...
Sorry for everything i did...
Sorry...
Maybe its time to let go...
Yea... Maybe...

Loooonnnnngggg Tiiiimmmmmeeee Nnnnnnooooo Pooooossssttttt

2010-03-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

LLLLOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGGG
TTTTTTTIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMEEEEEE
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO
PPPPPPOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSTTTTT

Lol...

It has been long......... Busy lately...
Hopefully everything i do will run smoothly...
Have a bad feeling that things will go wrong...
Hope that its just some wrong feeling...
Well... Thats all for now...

Here's a nice song for my fanz... XD
(One of my Favz)

Credits to youtube and whomever that uploaded it

2010-01-14T08:36:00.000-08:00

Some changes to the events that's coming up...
Investiture is postpone to 3rd Feb (FINALLY!!!),
CCA orientation on 15th Jan,
Flag Day on 16th Jan,
CNY show rehearsal 1 on 21st Jan (Haven prepare!!!),
CNY show on 12th Feb and
3rd Generation Youth Leaders' Summit on 12th March.

2010-01-12T06:12:00.000-08:00

1st post of the year... So many things, so little time!!! So many events, homework and stress!!!

Investiture is coming soon but it was told to us only last minute. We were only given less than 4 weeks to plan it. Its on the 27th Jan. So many things not done yet. Badge not done, pin not done, invites not done... Etc.

Than i have another stressful event on CNY. I need to put up a 10min performance and i've not done any prep yet. I haven even have my routine out. Dont know if i'll be ready for it. But its too late for me to back out now... Haiz!

Next is the National level event: 3rd Generation Youth Leaders' Summit. For this event, we are like 3 weeks behind time. Idk if everything would go smoothly... Haiz!

Many homework and remedial... Teachers are like snatching time slot for them to have remedial with us. Its like now sat will have maths, a maths, chem and maybe physics! Siao de duo can? Zzz... T.T

Haiz... Think i should stop here... Need go do homework le... Bye bee!

I'll still be waiting...

2009-12-25T19:39:00.000-08:00

Haven been blogging much cos nothing much to blog about... Well... Yesterday was my last day of work... Yeh... Christmas and im still working... Cos got pay rise for that day marh... So earn abit more loh... Didn't know that holiday dont have people de loh... Spent 70% of the time looking at customers walk past... Good thing my pay doesn't depend on commission if not i'll be screwed!

Anyway... Had lots of fun and experience working there... Know more people... Learnt new things... Now is the time to get ready for school le... I've just notice that i've got a mountain of homeworks and i haven even touch them yet... Siao Liao!!! Talk so much about working hard next year... Only less than a week to school starts... Hopefully i can get some done... T.T

Well nothing much to talk about le... Oh... Last thing... Sec 1 orientation... Was looking forward to it actually... Cos we planned lots and lots of game for the newbies to play... Though prep was crap... Think it will be fun... This year, our orientation is abit more of JCs style... We had a theme for the orientation and we also had acts and scripts to go with the theme... Our theme is called 'Zenith 2010'... Dont know wat it means but it sounds nice... Cos it looks chim... Well cant say anymore about it... Later kenna sue by my sch...

Looking forward to Sunday... Trybe Volunteer Appreciation Night! This is kind of funny loh... I joined them for close to a year, i didn't volunteer at all yet, and they invite me to the appreciation! Something like appreciating me for not volunteering yet... -.-
Anyway... Hope it will be fun... Gonna meet new people... Wahaha... Lol...

Ok... Got to go liao... Anything sms me ba... Ciao!

I'll be waiting...

2009-12-16T08:05:00.000-08:00

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

＊为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞＊

Repeat ＊

想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

2009-12-08T09:41:00.001-08:00

Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
--Otomo No Yakamochi--

A mighty pain to love it is, and 'tis a pain that pain to miss; but of all the pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain.
--Abraham Crowley--

Back... Or so...

2009-12-01T20:01:00.000-08:00

(Just to make my post look good)

Ciaossu! Finally back to blogging. Wow... Last post was like July... Which means i have been slacking for the past 5 months!!! Wei wei wei... Not slacking loh... Very busy leh... Even now also busy... Haiz... Just keep this 'online dairy' running for my fans ba.... XD

Yesterday... 1st day of work... Was ok... Except that now i have egg-phobia. Reason was simple... Who in the world, who hates egg to the core, would handle eggs for almost 2 hours and wont get a phobia of it? I, for one, dislike eggs. The smell of eggs would make me throw up so thats how bad it is. Yesterday i was told to deal the eggs, which i have no choice but to do it. Lucky thing was that i didn't throw up if not die arh... XD

After work was rehearsal for Chrismas Show @ TCT. Was fun but quite tiring. Reached home at around 1am plus than bath and all ended up sleeping at around 2 plus 3. Luckily today work at 5pm if not sure die! XD

Well looking back at this few months, I noticed a lot of stupid things that i have done and also wasted a lot of useful times. Well thats not going to happen again. I will now make full use of my time and hopefully i can score well for Os next year. Aim for Os; 8-10 points. Quite impossible but must try. Just like the quote said 'Nothing is impossible when there is possibility'. Haha... Also, i will forget about the past stupid things and concentrate more of wats going to come in the following year. There's another quote for this 'What was, was. What is, is. But the important this is what will be'.

Well thats all for now... Today 2nd day of work... Hopefully can make it in time to come and online for awhile... Haha... Ciao!

Regret...

2009-07-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, there was a kitten called Kitty.

One day, she saw another cat being killed by human. Kitty starts to feel scared and closed her eyes, thinking that if she closes her eyes she will not see the brutal killing scene again.

A month later, Kitty hears another cat screaming for help and than silence after that. She believes that the cat must have been killed by another human.

Kitty never open her eyes for the following year but once in awhile, she will hear those screams for help and than silence again. Her mindset of closing her eyes will allow her not to witness the brutal killing continues.

Soon, Kitty feels that closing her eyes is not the long term solution. She thinks that losing her eyesight is the best solution. So one day, Kitty went to look for a sharp edge for her to ram into but in order to look for it, she had to open her eyes to see.

At that instance, she saw a small kitten playing with a ball of wool. The small kitten throws the ball of wool to the other kitten and that kitten rushes for it. Than one of the kitten yell for help. The kittens than jump and play around with that ball of wool.

Kitty stopped looking for the sharp edge and walked away. She regretted not opening her eyes earlier because she is now too old to be playing with a ball of wool.

The moral of this story is trying to say: Cherish every moment. Don't wait till its gone and than regret about not doing anything to it.

But can i?

Back to my old self...

2009-07-11T11:38:00.000-07:00

Apologies for letting my blog die off for so long. Reason was that a few things happened in between this days and i was busy trying to settle it.

Firstly... MYE... I did not do very well for my mid year... Had a few 3s and 5s and a 7 and a 9... My L1R4 was 19 and R5 was 25... Well... I should have worked harder for it but ya... So i had to spend my holidays on deciding whether to continue juggling my school work, my interest and council or whether i should heck care all and just focus on my studies. I came up with the decision of continue juggling those stuffs that i have but i will spend more time on studies. My reason for such decision was that i want to be famous for my magic and i cant stop now... If i do... I will never get a chance anymore. Another reason is that, not trying to be thick skinned here, i feel that the council need me. Ya... Thats about it.

Secondly, there's this student council presidential election next week and i was suppose to be one of the four candidates but i rejected the chance to run for it. Reason being that although it does look good on my testimonial but i feel that being a top of the top is really a pressure. I also feel that it will affect my studies. Therefore i rejected for it. So left with three candidates: Chu Rui, Brian and Wi Li. Actually i feel that if i were to run for this election, i will most probably win it cause alot of people are asking me why i didn't run for it and alot of people wanted to vote for me also. But as my mind has made its decision i will not think much further. Now i'm helping the next most capable person on becoming the next president. And thats Chu rui. Hope that he could win cause i can already forsee wats going to happen when either Wi Li or Brian becoming the next president. Well lets just wish him all the best.

Lastly... Err... Dont know wat to type liao leh... Anyways... Hope that i can revive this blog... Help remind me to update my blog arh... But dont everyday remind me la... Like maybe after you update your blog liao than remind me loh... XD

Err... Ok... Nothing to say liao leh... Well i think thats all ba... Good luck......

I want to be with you,
But your millions of miles away.
It would make things so much better,
If i could hear you voice,
I guess i can't complain too much,
After all this was my choice.
I lie awake in bed,
As the tears stream down my face,
They just keep going,
Until the hit my pillow case.

I Miss You...

Exams!!!

2009-05-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

Well... Don't know wat to blog about now... Exam period marh... ZZZ... But still have to blog becos arh... I got alot of fans you see... Than they nv see my post very uncomfortable de... Right Hui boon??! Haha... JKJK...

For many of you out there... Gratz on finishing all of your exams... For those out there with a few more to go... JIAYOUZ!!!! For me? My life not so good... Today just had 2nd paper... Still got long way to go. ZZZ!!!

Anywayz... Hows life? Mine was not bad... Went magic busking for the past 2 Saturdays... Might be going this Saturday too. And i've been wondering whether i should take up life-saving course for swimming. Hopefully someone could give me some advice.

Let me just end of with the most recent event. I LOST MY WALLET!!! It happened on Monday, which is like yesterday, YS la... Ask me go play badminton with him... Than i just throw my wallet, hp and keys into the badminton bag than when we went chong en house to rest, i notice that my wallet gone le... Haiz... Went to look for it than after 10mins give up le. Went to police station to make a report cos EZ-link card inside. Than the officer told me that the wallet was found, in hougang point. ZZZ!!! I was not even close to hougang point la. Must be some ******* take my wallet, empty all my money, than throw at hougang point. But luckily got kind soul at hougang point give to police. If not i sure die. That ******* arh very bad loh... Took all my money except the coins. -.-lll Not bad la... At least he let me go home via bus... ZZZ!!! Lesson learnt? Never to put your wallet somewhere you cannot see... Especially in the public. I lost about 50+ dollars. Very ke lian hor... Haiz... Dont wan say liao la... I yao suan bei tong now le... Too much badminton liao. XD

Ok a few more lines and thats it for today.
Upcoming events:
1) Magic Busking this Sat at orchard (I think)
2) Booking badminton court at sports hall... Interested come join us play just text me!
3) Post exam FUN!!!
4) Water Technology course at TP
5) Plan your game competition... Due JUNE!!! Haven even got ideas yet... T.T
6) Organasing June gatherings!!!^^!!!^^!!!

OK thats it... See ya... Anything text me^^ BYE BYE

Magic Busking @ Vivo

2009-04-07T06:14:00.001-07:00

Heres the video i was talking about... Can be found on YouTube too... Hehe...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8c0__Tp9Gg

Back to blogging... Or maybe so...

2009-04-06T05:09:00.000-07:00

Hi all... Sorry arh... Blog like so dead... Didn't know wat to blog also... But by popular demand... Here it is... Nothing much to say also... Umm... Lets see wat are the interesting things that have happened...

Lets start from the most recent one. Well went busking street magic at Vivo on the 4th and, suppose to have but did not, 5th of April. When i was on my way there, my hand was like trembling like no body's business. I was like damn scared and excited. When i delivered my 1st trick, that feeling of satisfaction was so great that i could not stop wanting to show more. That's how i feeling as a magician loh. Anyway, 5th of April, ummm... Was abit time wasting. You see... 4th i was late so i thought 5th i better go early. I reached Vivo at around 12.30pm. Waited and than smsed Jack to find out that they starting at 3.30pm. So i was like walked the whole Vivo twice and than smsed Jack again and he said too little people going so cancelled. I was like win liao loh... Waited so long than cancelled. I left Vivo at 3.15pm than accidentally slept in the MRT. Overshoot 2 stops and than took back... Reached home 5.30p. Damn tired after that. Wasted my own time and Hui Boon's time... Sorry leh... And ya... Going to have a video uploaded on youtube... When its done i will post again.

Oh ya... Had news from my school Military Band for their SYF results... Well not very good but manage to maintain a Bronze. Not bad le la... Heard from them school like Dunman High, Gold Band, got silver this year. So if our MB manage to maintain Bronze means our standard is there... Just need more practice only... Since we are now on the topic of SYF, i just wanna speak abit about my choir. I'm not afraid to say this but our choir really cannot make it la... Minimium requirement is 24 people and we have 25 BUT only 15 to 20 came for every practice. Quite pathetic. So although we have enough people but i still think we wont be able to get the Bronze like our senior did. Was abit... Ok... Rephrase... Was very disappointed in the performance of the choir now... Hope everyone could concentrate and work together as one for the next few weeks. All the best...

This month seems to be very busy for me... Just look at my schedule:
7th April --- Prototype for 'Plan Your Own Game' to be handed in
13-14 April --- Science Elementz competition and Exhibition @ Anderson Sec
23 April --- SYF central judging for choir
27-30 April --- Recruitment Drive for MFSC
All very important stuff in April... And to think that i wanted to use this time to study for MYE... Haiz...

Welll... Think thats all for now loh... Nothing else to blog liao.... Bye

Both ways are led to dead ends.
But 1 way i know that before the dead end lies a hidden enemy.
While the other was the 1 i took in my last life.
I am here again thinking of which road to choose.
Either way, it is a choice that will draw me to death.
But memories kept me still.
Density kept me thinking.

Forget the past, Continue with the present, Plan for the future

2009-03-12T08:17:00.000-07:00

Well it has been long since i updated this so just to entertain those who actually bothers to read this dead blog... Heres something i hope those who are like me will do. Forget the past, Think about the future. Dont just let 1 mistake or 1 failure act pull you down. Think positive... But according to prof. ATHB, he says that think negative so as when the negative comes, you already knew it is coming. So this is something which i feel that i can share with those 'fans' of mine.

Lastly, i believe you would want me to get on with life as much as i hope you could right? Well hope you doing fine now... Dont need to worry about me too much. I have also found someone who could just fill that hole which was left untouched. I hope she can help me and give me a chance. Well wish me good luck than... Thats all for today.

Going to sleep liao... Nitez 'fanz'

Wat a bastard i am...

2009-03-02T04:42:00.000-08:00

I don't know wat got into me but i just wasn't myself yesterday night... I began to say stuff which did not even go pass my f***ing brain. Now i am so regretful... I shouldn't have said those words... Shouldn't have made the situation worst for you instead should be comforting you... I am so f*** up with myself now that i just couldn't believe i said those stuff and because i did... I will not forgive meself... I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MESELF... You trusted me so much and turn to me when you are down but wat did i do? I made it worst... I f***ing scolded you for wat you did not do... I... I... I don't wat i can say about myself... I'm a basturd... A f***ing basturd... A bastard who goes around hurting many with words which did not pass through my brain. Now i only hope for your forgiveness... But even if you do forgive me... i will NOT forgive myself... I hope that we are still friend and you can trust me like before... I promise with my life that such thing will not happen again... I promise i will not allow you to get hurt again... The reason why i wasn't myself was probably because i heard you were hurt... And that made me feel mad, unease... Now i really hope you can forgive me... And I PROMISE... IT WILL NEVER EVER HAPPEN AGAIN...

I didn't know that the price i had to pay was so great
If i knew it would happen this way
I would rather i did not exist
Cause if there is not Anthony Tan in the world
Your world would be much rounder
Much lovelier and of course less of pain
If my existance brought you unhappiness
I might as well disappear once and for all
For that in exchange for your happiness
Its worth...

Valentines Day

2009-02-13T07:18:00.000-08:00

Don't ever leave the one you love
for the one you like.
Because the one you like will leave you
for the one they love.

Its valentines Day soon... Wishing all couples Happy Valentines Day. Wishing those who have a crush but don't dare expressing yourself, put in all your courage and make this valentines a memorable one. Wishing those who are spending Valentines Day alone like me, hope that you will find your true love someday and may you be happy!!! I WANNA WISH ALL OF YOU... YES YOU!!! THE ONE READING THIS POST... HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!!

Should I Put An End?

2009-02-03T07:07:00.000-08:00

Well after a long long long long (get it? VERY VERY VERY LONG!!!) long long long long time I'm back to blogging. Or should i... Need opinion... Should i close down my blog? I dont know why... But i just feel that this blog is no longer part of me... No longer a part of my life... My heart... So empty... Like apart of me is gone... Gone forever... Never will it be found... ARHH!!!

Haiz... Finally Chingay is done... It was only 4 days ago and I'm already missing everything... Levitators, Dancers, Skyrunners and of course the Magicians. Miss the days where we had to rehearse at the expo. Miss the days we were at Telok Kurau. Miss the days where we had rehearsals at PAYM. Miss EVERYTHING about Chingay!!! Missing the experience. Missing the time where we socialise before our show. Missing the way we keep our prop when we had to call out 'Dancers! Help!'. Missing those nice people that I've worked once... Miss EVERYTHING!!! Memories... How i wish time would stop on the actual day of Chingay... How i WISH...

As I'm blogging now, i had no idea why... But tears just flow down... Flowing like running tap... Memories... ... ...

I think i dont have anything else to say this time... Had to go rest... Going for appreciation night for MBox Chingay this friday... And also the last time where i can gather with my Chingay friends... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Lastly... Thanks to those who had wished me a happy birthday, be it advance or belated. I really appreciate it... Thank You. Thanks to Chu Rui, Ying Wei, Jun Ji and Bryan for getting me such nice things... For those who had not get me anything... Its not too late... All i wan is everyone that i know of to be happy... Not more... Just happiness to those who are friends and foes to me... thats all...

Once again you left me
maybe it is better that way
3 weeks is enough
the memories will be kept
somewhere deep within
But I'm not sure how long it will stay
As a part of me is missing...

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

1st Post Of 2009!!!

2009-01-06T04:06:00.000-08:00

Hows everyone? Happy belated new year for those which I forgot or I did not have time to. School started for a few days le. But still not very in the mood of study leh. Than is like everyday the bag very heavy loh. Die. Wat made it worst was that everyday later than 3pm than release. I was like wat the hell loh! So late. But must get use to it. Haiz... So that is why I always wake up and go to school in a very sianz face. But because of you, I am prepared for everyday's challenge. Because of you, I have the energy and the enthusiam to do things which I have never thought that i could do. You are like my source of life-force. And i wanna let you know... You are the most important person in my life.

OK... Enough of those (so mushy), well tracking back on wat i have done during the last few days of holidays. Ummm... Nothing much except went for countdown and see fireworks!!! This is my second time seeing a fireworks LIVE!!! Next time i must bring you there. Promise to go with me? O.O? Anywayz... I told xd to give me a copy of the video le. If possible than i will try to upload some day.

So ya... Thats about all that i have to blog about.... Oh ya... Just for extra info (and also a reminder to myself). Chu Rui, Yi Song, Han Inn, Tristan and I are going for Elementz Science Competition again this year. I not sure if its possible because the competition is in march and we have not even started. Haiz... Hope everything goes well... Umm.... OK that is really all. Haha... Getting very long winded liao. OK Bye and all the best for studies!!!

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

Reviewx 4 (Chnages to education in Singapore)

2009-01-01T02:29:00.000-08:00

SINGAPORE: 'Real-world learning' was the buzz phrase for the education sector in Singapore in 2008.

From the Education Ministry's (MOE) review of primary schools to its plans for Singapore's fourth public university, the aim was to grow a generation of students who are confident, creative and keenly attuned to the needs of various industries.

The year kicked off with a new Education Minister at the helm, but Dr Ng Eng Hen is no stranger to the portfolio, having previously served as second minister.

Under his watch, the primary school system will see some major changes. Over the next few years, all primary schools will likely have a single-session structure.

For students, the change would mean more opportunities to learn through play, and for teachers, they will have more flexibility in planning timetables.

"Our children must grow up to be confident young people. They must be secure in their own identity, be able to form their own opinions and communicate well to convince others," said Dr Ng.

But opinions differed on how this should be achieved, with some arguing that a single-session structure may not be suitable for all schools.

There were also mixed reactions to MOE's proposal to recruit only graduate teachers for primary schools by 2015.

Chong Poh Soon, a parent, said: "My concern is more about the aptitude of the teachers. I have seen passionate teachers who are not graduates."

More details on these issues will be known in January when the review committee submits its proposal.

The issue of staff quality also came up earlier this year in discussions over Singapore's fourth public university.

In June, an international advisory panel said the success of the university will hinge on the calibre of its faculty. But to many observers, its emphasis on cross-disciplinary studies and industry interaction is already a winning formula.

The new university will be built next to tech companies at Changi Business Park. It is expected to open by 2015 with an annual enrolment of 2,500, offering courses such as business, engineering and design.

Senior Minister of State for Education Lui Tuck Yew said: "There will be research in the university and again, it will take a different research approach in that it is going to be more industry-focused, more centred around providing solutions to the needs of the university and employers in the short and medium term."

The government's plans to expand its tertiary sector looks right on track, but authorities are not ready to give the green light to a liberal arts college yet.

In the meantime, with the new university on the way, there is plenty to look forward to.

Qouted from CNA

Reviewx 3 (Singapore new year fireworks)

2009-01-01T02:26:00.000-08:00

SINGAPORE: Over a quarter million people ushered in the New Year at Singapore's new downtown Marina Bay.

There was high energy to reflect the troubled times, but there were also quiet moments of peace and hope for 2009.

The specially-choreographed fireworks at Marina Bay took spectators' breath away.

"Fantastic fireworks, great show, all good," said a man in the crowd.

An Indian woman added: "It's definitely something different compared to New York, so it's great to be out here."

More than 10,000 spectators came to watch the very first full-length concert out on Marina Bay.

Revellers were entertained with 90 minutes of song and dance by local celebrities from Singapore's MediaCorp Channel 5, Asian Idol Hady Mirza and Filipino band 'River Maya'.

Qouted from CNA

Reviewx 2 (Bangkok pub fire)

2009-01-01T02:19:00.000-08:00

SINGAPORE: One Singaporean man is believed to have died in a fire that broke out at Santika Pub in Bangkok during New Year celebrations early January 1.

Two other Singaporeans were also injured in the pub during the New Year celebrations. The Ministry of Foreign Affairs (MFA) said it has been in contact with the next-of-kin of these two victims who are in hospital with minor injuries.

It added that the Singapore Embassy in Bangkok will continue to work with the local authorities to ascertain if there are any more Singaporeans affected.

According to reports, at least 59 people, including a number of foreigners, died in the nightclub which has a capacity of 1,000. But it is not clear how many people were there at the time of the blaze.

Meanwhile, local media reports put the number of injured at about 200.

The party had been touted as a "Goodbye Santika" event as the pub owner was planning to move to another location.

Police said the fire may have been caused by firecrackers or pyrotechnics or an electrical fault, but have ruled out arson.

Singaporeans with friends or relatives who are known to be in the vicinity of the affected area but who remain uncontactable can contact the Singapore Embassy in Bangkok.

They can also contact the MFA Duty Office, 24 hours, or the Embassy of the Republic of Singapore in Bangkok.

Quoted from CNA

Reviewx 1 (Hong Kong bird flu)

2009-01-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

HONG KONG: A Hong Kong-born infant has contracted a mild form of bird flu, the fifth case of its type in the territory, health authorities said on Tuesday.

The two-month-old girl, who lives with her parents in China's southern city of Shenzhen, was diagnosed with the influenza A (H9N2) infection after she developed vomiting, a cough, and a runny nose, according to the city's Centre for Health Protection.

Thomas Tsang, controller of the centre, said the virus was detected in a specimen taken from the girl's respiratory system when she was admitted to Hong Kong's Tuen Mun Hospital on December 22.

She was discharged on December 23, but re-admitted to the hospital six days later because of a high white blood cell count, which may be suggestive of an underlying haematological condition, the centre said.

The girl is staying in the hospital for further investigation.

"Further genetic sequencing is being conducted to determine if the virus is completely of avian origin," Tsang said.

"As the girl was staying in Shenzhen for the whole incubation period, we have informed the Guangdong health department of this case and they will carry out necessary investigation and follow-up actions."

The department will inform the World Health Organization and health authorities in Macao of the findings, he said.

H9N2 is an avian flu virus that mainly affects ducks and chickens, the centre said. Infection in humans is rare, and presents as a mild disease.

Three girls and a boy were confirmed to have been infected with H9N2 in 1999, 2003 and 2007 respectively.

On December 11, Hong Kong's government confirmed that the deadly H5N1 virus had been found at a poultry farm near the city's border with China, the first outbreak of the virus on a local farm in nearly six years. More than 90,000 chickens were culled to prevent the spread of the flu.

Hong Kong was the scene of the world's first reported major H5N1 bird flu outbreak among humans in 1997.

Quoted From CNA

Reviewx (Singapore flyer)

2009-01-01T02:06:00.000-08:00

SINGAPORE: The operator of the Singapore Flyer said Wednesday it is suspending operations to carry out extensive investigations on the actual cause of the disruption on Tuesday.

Technical crews are investigating what tripped the electrical system which stopped the observation wheel from rotating for nearly seven hours.

It is understood that the fault could lie with an isolated motor unit.

The company is also carrying out extensive safety checks before resuming normal operations.

For customers who have booked tickets for rides on Christmas Eve, refunds will be made.

As for continuing operations on Christmas Day, it will depend on the outcome of the safety checks and investigations.

A company spokesperson said the firm is making sure all safety procedures are in place before normal operations can resume.

A major power disruption left 173 passengers stranded for some six-and-half hours when the giant observation wheel came to a halt shortly before 5pm on Tuesday.

Ten passengers were rescued through ceiling hatches and winched to the ground. Power was restored and the wheel resumed turning after 11pm.

Quoted From CNA

I feel that the flyer's reliability will drop alot as it is not even a year old, it broke down for the first time. I think that the company will have a great lost in many ways. There are repairing to be done, the flyer could not operate and that could add up to more than a few hundred thousand. Even after it is done repairing, the business might not be as good as before. Luckily i dont really fancy the flyer. I only like the external lighting. So i won't waste $50 just to go one round and endangering myself to being one of the victim for this kind of things.

Journalx 4 (Makeups)

2008-12-31T22:41:00.000-08:00

Coming to the end of holidays, we are having more and more Chingay rehearsal. While getting nearer to our perfromance date, we are also letting the make up artist have a chance to rehearse their make up skills. So some of us was unluckily chosen to be try on the make up. Both Tristan and I were chosen. At first it was only 5 people and only Tristan was in. Than there was a last minute change and there are now 10 people which made me in it too. The reporting time for people going for the make up are alot earlier than our normal reporting time. Once we had reached upon PAHQ, we were told to get our make up foundation done first. After our foundation are done, than they can start to put the make up on. This are some pictures of the process. Enjoy.

Tristan with his make up foundation on.

Our cluster leader, Daniel Gan. His son is also studying in Montfort and his son is 1 year younger than me.

This is Qu Ting (Dont know if this is right). She is one of the 2 females in the magician contingent.

This is me, of course. The make up look so nice but it look disgusting on me.

Tristan and I. His make up was only half way done when we had to assemble to rehearse our dance steps.

Journalx 3 (Magic Circle Christmas themes)

2008-12-31T21:45:00.000-08:00

Having magic as an hobby, I will have to take out as much time to hang around with experts. So I went for the gathering called the Magic Circle where all Project S.M.I.L.E graduates gather to share more magic that they learned. As M.C. is only once a month, that's the reason that every month we will have different themes. So this month, being the month of December, we have Christmas as our themes. We had marvelous tricks show by Edward and a few more people who are more experts than me. And what's my favorite part of M.C. this month? It is of course the part where we were suppose to chose a leader and than use whatever we can find to make him look like Santa. From my group, Colin volunteered and on the other group guess who... Tristan. Joke right. I took some photos of the 'products' that we have done.

Colin. After we finished, this is how he looks.

During the competition. This is Superman cum Santa. Haha.

Tristan after finishing. Cant even see his face.

See how difficult it is for him to speak. Haha.

Tristan with his group.

Group pictures 1.

Group pictures 2. (Notice I'm not inside both cause I'm taking photos)

A video of the sing-along session. Guitarist is Wei Ling.

Journalx 2 (Costume for Chingay)

2008-12-31T00:41:00.001-08:00

For Chingay, we have to wear costume and make ups for the show. And i took some photos of us trying out. Take your time... Enjoy.

The half the costume of what we will be wearing.

Tristan with his wig on.

A friend which i made from Chingay. Adrian

Another friend. Jack. He is very good at wooing girls. (Thats how his levitator became his gf.)
Tristan and I with our wigs^^.

Journalx 1 (Chingay)

2008-12-30T23:36:00.000-08:00

Well... Was busy pass few weeks so cant blog much about live. So here it is all about what I have done... Hehe.

Alright... Holiday was fun for me because.... I'm taking part in Chingay 2009. And you know what's the best part? I am joining as a MAGICIAN. Cool right? Haha... And the reason I joined Chingay is not because I got too much time. But is because I want to have a unforgettable birthday this year. How? Cause Chingay is actually on the exact same day as my birthday. So I feel that being able to perform for this national event is very meaningful. And I also know that to take part in Chingay and not affect my studies, I must know how to plan my time wisely. Thanks to Mr Azman i am able to do it without a problem.

So ya... Most of my holidays are brunt because of rehearsals and stuff. But I feel that its worth. This is just like NDP the 2nd. Where you see big groups of people rehearsing till very late and than the performance is like very grand. If you want to know about what we will be doing during Chingay, do visit Tristan's blog at www.sparkycyk.blogspot.com. He have the details of it and he too is joining as part of the maigcian contingent. Generally, our contingent is the grand finale performance which you will be able to see Lawrence Koong being brunt alive. Lawrence Koong is the one who produce MagicBox at the Expo. And thats why we name our contingent the MagicBox @ Chingay 2009. In our contingent, we have 5 main groups of people. First will be the Dancers. Than we have the Skyrunners. Followed by Magicians. Next is the Logistic group and finally the main performer. Under the Magician group, we are divided into 2 subgroups. The Magcian magician, and the magician levitators. Tristan and I are the Magician magician while there's another guy, called Kang Jie, is the Magician levitator.

So ya... Thats about all for now.

Journalx (Reflections)

2008-12-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

So Christmas just passed... Hoped that everyone enjoyed their Christmas with all the presents and stuff... Well Christmas was not a very pleasant one for me. Went through many Ups and Downs and was not really in the mood of celebrating. But I have a magic at my aunt's party so I could not avoid crowded areas.

What I really feel like doing now is to find a hole and hide in it. Cause i may have done so much... Yet gain so little. Maybe its something which is done willingly. But what can I do? I cant defy fate... I cant change destiny... What much could i do but pray for your days to be happy and safe.

Having Chingay tomorrow so that's all for now...
( Updated old blog )

Death Draws Near...

2008-12-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

As much i feel that my blog is dying, I think that i might as well die with it. Why is everyone avoiding me?! What did i do wrong?! Can SOMEONE EXPLAIN!?!?

Living in the vision of darkness and befriended death.
Hoping for a brighter tomorrow,
That i can never have.

2008-11-18T07:20:00.000-08:00

Wa... Got hell lot of things to do man. 2 days later still got choir camp. Than things haven pack yet. Die liao la... Haiz...

Think that this choir camp going to be very 失败. Reason? Easy... Because i am part of the organizing committee. I Game I/C some more leh... I think they going to have a very boring time loh... Haiz...

This few days you have been very cold to me... Did i do anything wrong or have i made you angry? Please tell me something... Don't so cold towards me can... Actually, i found out that 'Sorry' has been my favorite now. Ummm... I don't know why. But i have this feeling that i am very very useless. I can't even make you happy. I can't even do the simplest thing; which is to cheer you up. I will keep on trying... As long as you would give me the chance to... I really hope that we could be like before. I really hope you could be as cheerful as before... I promise i cheer you up... Even if its the last thing i would do......

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!

The End...?

2008-11-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

Why must it be like this? Why must you leave me? Why did you made my fears and nightmares come true? Why, why why?

You were my everything;
Now you’re gone.
I don’t have the strength
To carry on.

Skies always seemed sunny
When you were here;
Now there’s nothing but gloom
In my atmosphere.

I loved you so much;
You were all I had;
Now my whole world
Is depressing and sad.

I’d like to start feeling
Other than blue,
But you were my everything,
What can I do?

As long as I still have a chance, i won't never, NEVER give up.

Wat was, was; Wat is, is; Wat will be, will be?

2008-11-04T03:08:00.000-08:00

Well could not blog much today... And will not for the next few days. Cos I'm just too tired. I'm emotionally tired and that I don't know how long more can I hold on anymore.

Ummm... This is the time where this phrase 'What was, was. What is, is. But what will be, may not be.' And I totally agree so. What happened, had already happened (I'm sorry). What is happening, is happening (I'm grateful but still I'm sorry). What will happen, ummm... I WILL make a difference (Hopefully its the best thing to do). Now I notice... It is just so hard to make you happy. But I will still try... Although it seems like my efforts will be reduce to zero. But its worth the effort. Maybe its what people always says, "Let nature takes it's course." If you are not happy or find me irritating, than just let me know. I would avoid contacting you unnecessarily and not irritate you anymore.

Hmmm... Ummm... Well I think that's all I can say. Until i return to normal, STAY HAPPY. That is all I request of you.

New relationship, New memories, New troubles...

2008-11-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

Well its has been 3 days... This 3 days can be said to be my happiest and most memorable memories in my 14 years of life. With her by my side, I believe that anything will be possible. 至少我没有白费这四到五年来等待着她的时间。But there's something which worries me a lot; how long can we be together? I know this is what people call 一相情愿... But I really hope this relationship could survive longer than any of us could ever imagine. Do you know that when you called me 'dear' for the 1st time, I was jumping around like monkey? I was like "Wow... Finally you have accepted me." But when you asked me the difference between liking someone and loving someone, I was totally stuck. I could not give you the answer that time, but i found the meaning on net; Liking someone means that you are attracted to him/her for whatever he/she have done, be it good or bad. Loving someone means to have a profoundly tender and a passionate affection for another person. That is what the dictionary says. But in my dictionary, Like is to have an attraction or affection for someone while Love is to like somebody despite his/her bad points and make sacrifice and take risk for him/her just to see and make him/her happy. True Love is to make someone you love happy.

I dare say I both Like and Love you. But I also know that love does not hope for a return. There's a saying goes: 'It is more blessed to be love than to love.' That's what I want you to feel; Blessed. That is also the reason why I don't mind you not loving me.

Well there is more troubles coming which I hope we can face it together and not escape reality. I really really hope that time would freeze at this very minute, but I know it's impossible. But I still hope we would stay in this manner for as long as ever.

Worries, worries, worries...

2008-10-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

Well sorry for not posting anything... Busy lately. Found a part-time job 3 days ago but quit yesterday cause found out that Wall's ice-cream cannot sell anymore. Well bo bian... So quit and now looking for another 1.

Few days back went for briefing for Magic box @ Chingay 2009. Had the actual schedule liao. Its every Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday for the whole of November, December and front half of January. The actual day of Chingay parade is on my birthday and the day after; 30th and 31st January. Yeh!!! Celebrating my birthday with a little magic^^... And because it is only 3 months away, i will be very busy so very sorry if i cant pei ni ok? Wo bu shi gu yi de...^^

Oh... Well have the latest news about my nephew... The LCH disease is suspected to be affecting his liver... Test is still carrying out to find out. Hopefully is not... Well look on the bright side, he looks much better than last time... I believe he will recover soon!!!

And lastly, hope that hui boon will get well soon and fast... Than after that hang out arh...^^

Well nothing else to say liao... Till next time... bye bye^^

The End Draws Near...

2008-10-16T03:04:00.000-07:00

Well today was both (fun,happy) and (upset,disappointed).

For the fun part. Fun was that i was involved in this enrichment program called 'Financial Literacy' thingy. Happy cos can skip 2 lessons from 0900 to 1130. Well this enrichment program are only for those who are keen in Maths. It was conducted by this group of people from 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad'. They actually had many books and i had one of them. I had the copy of 'Rich Kid, Poor Kid' and it was quite interesting. It teaches you about how to manage your finance well so that you will be rich. Well back to the program... They came and thought us something about how a rich man get himself rich, and how much difference are rich man from a poor man and a middle class man. Well, the concept is a bit complicated. Maybe i will post it out some other day. Ok... Than we played this board game called 'Cash Flow' by 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad'. I played this game a few times before but i kept losing. But today was Ok...Neither win nor lose. Well had a great time teasing Ben and Chu Rui... Cos they suck at this game. But they were the richest. Lolz... Well thats the Fun and Happy.

For the upset and disappointing part is that I finally got my EOY results. Was very disappointed in myself.

English: 61.9 B4
Chinese: 64.3 B4
Maths: 56.5 C5
Science: 73.0 A2
History: 72.5 A2
Literature: 69.4 B3
V. Arts: 60.5 B4
D N T: 50.0 C6

AVG: 63.5 B4

Lousy like shit loh! So from wat you can see, my E1 dreams are of course gone liao!!! Now i think that E2 is also very difficult loh. Haiz... Than get the subject combination form for us to put our subject which we wan to take next year. Than is like i also dont know wat to take loh. Cant take Geo cos i fail it like hell. So i thinking of taking Pure History, A Maths, Combine SS + History. But i will appeal for Pure Geography cos i very interested in it. But i doubt can de loh cos my Geo is like D7? Know why like that not? Cos my CA2 drag me down de loh. My SA2 get 74 but CA2 get 28 so add up become only 48.4%. Haiz...

Well thats all for today liao... Going to emo, if not keeping myself busy so that i will not have time to emo/ anyhow think. Byez...

Paper + Results = Unhappiness???

2008-10-14T04:28:00.001-07:00

Well first up, i would like to thank those who had tried to cheer me up, either via sms, msn or tag.

Well this few days in school was all cold and scary cos everyone very anxious and scared about their marks for all the papers. For me? Of course i'm like the rest. Up till today, i've gotten back about 4 papers. My results SUCKS!!! I believe i can do better than this de loh. I see my friends like all score quite good loh. Damn jealous. Don't believe my results SUCK? Wait till you see this:

Chinese: 68% (B3)
Maths: 57% (C5)
Science: 67% (B3)
History: 69% (B3)
D N T: 72% (A2)
Eng (Paper 2): 62.5% (B4)

See... Lousy right? Maths used to be one of my best subjects de loh. Now is like one of the worst. I am, not quite, but very disappointed in myself. Can just go and die liao loh. My class got 5 people already achieved 4As liao loh. I think my E1 dream just vanished like that. Destroyed by my very own hand. Haiz... Blog till here than. Just going to stay one side and emo liao.

It is time like this when I think of you, and wonder if you ever think of me.

Apology to everyone

2008-10-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

1st, I would like to apologize to everyone for not posting anything since after exam. I will not for the next few days. Anything can just sms or tell me vis msn.

Next, my reason for not being able to blog is that i have no mood to. There has been too many things happening in my family. My nephew had this disease called LCH. Than my grandma had to go for a operation for eyes. Well, this are enough for me to worry for the next few days.

I think many of you may be think: Wat is LCH?

What is LCH?

Langerhan's Cell Histiocytosis (LCH) is a rare blood disease that is caused by an excess of white blood cells called histiocytes. A histiocyte is a form of white blood cell. Its job is to help destroy certain foreign materials and fight infection. For unknown reasons, patients with this disease have too many histiocytes (Langerhans cells). These cells accumulate in different organs and can result in a variety of symptoms. The histiocytes cluster together and can attack the skin, bones, lung, liver, spleen, gums, ears, eyes, and/or the central nervous system. The disease can range from limited involvement that spontaneously regresses to progressive multiorgan involvement that can be chronic and debilitating. In some cases, the disease can be life-threatening.

In some ways, histiocytosis is similar to cancer and has historically been treated by oncologists with chemotherapy and radiation. Unlike cancer, histiocytosis sometimes goes into remission without treatment.

The cause of LCH is unknown. It may be triggered by an unusual reaction of the immune system from something commonly found in the environment. It is not a known infection or cancer. It is not known to be hereditary or communicable.

Over the years, cancer treatments have been used in patients with histiocytosis. Consequently, hematologists and oncologists, who treat cancer, also treat children with LCH. However, the disease is not cancer. Radiation therapy, if used, is given in much lower doses than that which cancer patients receive.

The vast majority of patients will survive the disease. Some may develop life-long chronic problems, while others remain symptom free. In some cases the disease is fatal. Usually these are very young infants who have a rapid downhill course and do not respond to any known treatment. Whether or not the disease responds to treatment will often depend on the extent of organ involvement; however, it is often difficult to make definite predictions.

Extra Info:

Only 1 out of around 25000 people will contract with this disease. And it is quite rare for a child to have. But it is said that 8-9 out of 10 will recover from it.

So you see, this is very worrying. I really hope that my nephew, Caedmon, will be fine. Although i m worried, i cannot express it out because i dont wan his parents to be upset. What they really need is our support; support from families and friends.

With this i should end todays post. Anything pls contact me through my HP. I dont know how long i can hold on. Well, believe in miracle. Thats all i can do. I hope i wont lose a nephew. I wish Caedmon would recover quickly...

My body failing me???

2008-09-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

Well went for school as per normal... Than lesson and blar blar blar.......

Was released 30mins earlier because of Montfort Badminton Open 2008. Than walked to Hougang sports hall and meet up with Yi Song, Ian and Avindh. Warm-up with them for about 15min and than the teachers came. 2.45pm we started the game. There is 4 courts and 5 groups will be at each court. I was to go court 10 and my opponent is some sec 1 guy called James Parks. Funny name hor? Haha... OK... Back to topic. Played with him and when beat him 15-9. As i was playing this match, i was having a very hard time controlling my right hand. Don't know why also. But something else happened. I sprain my arm during P.E lesson and its my right arm. Great both things happened at once ba.

Anyway, after 1st match, i had time to rest and than it was my 2nd match. At that time i was feeling very unwell. Hand was hurting like crazy but cannot back off... If not no sportsmanship... Jkjk. Anyway continued playing. Was rather a struggler though. At the very end of the game, the score was 12-14 with me at the losing end. Even my friends at the side was like saying, " Bye Anthony" But i continued playing and was determined to win as much as possible, for some reasons ba, so i played my all. Won the match by 15-14. Lucky loh. Than i thought that was my last game so i slacken abit. But ended up that i have another match.

I was like wa lao... People hand wan break liao loh. Bo bian still must play. But this time, i face a very scary opponent. Don't know some bangala from sec 1 la, damn powerful. I know how to beat him, but the thing is i no strength after the 1st ball. For every shot i return him, my hand is like someone step on it like that. Haiz... Continued playing and obviously i lost. 7-21. Very far hor? Haiz... Dont wan talked about it liao...

Took a bus home after that and than at my house the car park there i started to feel very restless and very giddy. Than like hard to breath. Haiz... So i walked to void deck and sat down. Than while i was resting, i think i was too tired, which cause the above, cause i fell 'asleep' after i sat down. When i woke up, it was around 4 something 5 liao. Feeling better so went home to rest.
Haiz... A few more minutes time is someone's birthday wor... I would like to wish that person a very happy birthday!!!

Alright got to go liao... Bye Bye...

N4 cluster @ MJS (reflections)

2008-09-08T05:10:00.000-07:00

Went for a N4 cluster leadership camp for primary schools, on 3rd Sept, which includes Montfort Junior, Mee Toh Primary, Maris Stella Primary and Fernvale Primary. Actually got another one, Seng Kang Primary but something came up so did not come. Assemble and split into groups. I am in charge of Group E with Terry.

1st was deciding on a group name, motto and writing down of members' name. Than is ice-breaker. They are suppose to pass the basketball above the head while the other person pass under the leg and repeat these movement alternatively. After that we set a target and tried to beat it. And my group really did it.

After that everyone had to go to the AVA room. It is located at the 6th level. My group took the lift with Terry while i ran the stairs. Damn tiring loh. Some more for the whole day i run up and down like more than 5 times loh. Nvm... Had briefing about amazing race and than we were off. Was fun though some was not cooperative.

After amazing race was some dance thingy and than went off for lunch. After lunch, the primary school students went to assemble while we clean up. They did a big mess at the rubbish bin than we had a hard time cleaning up.

After that Daniel gave a briefing and different groups went to different areas. There are 3 stations. 1 is OC, than there is pass-the-water and lastly cross the river. As it was raining, so we did not do cross the river but played dog and bone. Was damn fun making fun of them.

After that went back to AVA room for reflections and than its HOME SWEET HOME!!!

N4 cluster @ MJS (photos)

2008-09-08T04:35:00.000-07:00

Briefing for Amazing race @ MJS AVA room.

The excos and councilor helping out.

Equipments for Amazing Race.

Walking around to find designated spot. 'Faster...'

Picking clues. 'Wa... stress sia...'

Girl called Cheryl is picking picture card. 'Becareful...'

Looking for another spot.

Still looking. 'I think i found it!!!'

Someone picked a bomb and have to do forfeit. Kick the chatek 50 times and everyone must kick at least once. 'Very fun... Hahaha...'

Kicking kicking kicking... 'Hehehe...'

Fixing the picture to complete the Amazing Race. 'Eh... Some part missing...'

The picture before it is done. 'Two more group not here yet...'

The complete picture. 'Yeh... Finish liao...'

Reflections.

Dance to the music.

Dance again.

Hey... Dance! 'Hehehe...'

Hey, no dance, no eat. Haha...

Cleaning up after everyone have finished eating.

Nice right? Wat a mass.

Briefing for games after lunch.

Waiting for OC...

Dont know wat he doing...

Guess who?

Guess who again...

Last 1...

Pass the water...

Smile...

Squeeze... Haha...

See... 200ml in 30min... not bad arh?

Reflection at the end of the day...

Reflection... Spell my name as: Antoni

Random poem...

2008-09-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

I had always believe,
That ones destiny,
Can be changed if one determine.
But all this while,
Nothing changed.
Everything is still the same,
Even fate is making a fool of me.
I am now living in a life of misery.
Where tears runs down freely.
Where dreams seems so far,
That it cant be fulfilled for eternity.
Waiting seems to be the favorite thing,
Which i totally engross in.
But now our distance seems so far,
Which is not what i really want.
And every time i want us to meet,
Than excuses and reasons arise.
If this is my destiny and my fate,
I would prefer to be dead.

NDP combine choir post celebration (BBQ)

2008-08-31T23:17:00.000-07:00

Well... Today left home at around 11.30am to meet Han Inn. After that we took 88 to White Sand shopping center to slack cause we were suppose to meet Atiqah they all at around 2pm. Anyway, met up with Kang Jie and than went to look for a special gift so that he could give to ____. First we went to 'More Than Words' than we could not find things that is special. In addition, Kang Jie had a budget. Not more than $20. Joker right? Haha... Anyway, after that we went to popular and was looking at this bottle which have some paper inside for writing. So KJ decided to buy that bottle, cost about $6 something, and than we went to look for origami (not sure the spelling) paper. After a long time choosing what to buy, i bought 2 hearts and a turtle while Han Inn bought a heart. After that we went to look for a pen, tapes and pen knife but could not find pen knife so we used the pen to cut the tapes. After buying, we went to library to do all the writing, folding and warping of the gift for KJ. The librarian came up to us to ask us to leave or to occupy any other place but not between the shelves. So we walked all the way to the other side and sat there to continue. After awhile, she came up to us again, but this time we were almost ready to leave. Anyway i manage to do some hearts.

<------ Top and left is Han Inn's work
Right is my work. Big difference hor?

<------- Left is Han Inn's
Right is mine. Big improvement

After that we meet up with Atiqah and gang and found out that all the Montfort guys are there liao. So discuss, discuss and finally came up with the decision of the guys bring the things to Pasir Ris park 1st while the girls go and buy other stuffs. So we distributed the work and everyone left. Something funny happened while me and KJ push the trolley of 2 packets of bee hoon and plates. The bee hoon actually dropped of the trolley and half of 1 packet of the bee hoon was on the ground. Instead of helping to clear up, we stood there thinking of what we should do. In the end, we had to take a taxi to the park. After we reached the park at car park A, which is pit number 1. We had to walk all the way to pit 29 so we decided to borrow a trolley to push all the things to the pit. After we unloaded everything at our pit, we had to push it all the way back to pit 3 to return the trolley and than walked all the way back our pit. Than we sat down near the beach and slack. Also took some photos.

<----- Drawn by Me!!! Haha... Not nice loh...

<----- Nice right? Came up with this idea while emoing...

After that went over to help out in the BBQ. We start at 4 and Han Inn and I was like doing all the BBQ ourself. Was fun although very tiring. Our legs like wanna break liao. But mine was worst cause i stand than run than stand than run again. Both of us never sit and eat for the whole day lorhs... Haha.

<----- Prefect match... Brandon and Ting Yin Was making fun of them lorhs

<----- Food we were preparing
Nothing to do so take photo

At around 7 something, we had full almost we we played with water and than had group pics. The group pics was like very hard to get everyone to cooperate lorhs. No one wan listen to me... Sadded.

<----- Me and Han Inn

<----- Me and Mr Lennie

<----- Quick get ready for group pics

<----- OMG... is it my phone or the photographer got problem

<----- Look at the lovely Mr and Mrs Sim... Haha

Well... Thats all for today's post. Happy holiday and good luck in all your exams...

--------------------------------------------Anthony--------------------------------------------

Stress

2008-08-28T07:45:00.000-07:00

I Wrote Your Name In The Sky
The Wind Blew It Away
I Wrote Your Name On The Beach
The Waves Washed It Away
I Wrote Your Name In My Heart
And It Forever Shall Stay
Quoted from: Ying Wei

Well... Just finished my exams. History was OK except that i lost 6 marks due to some carelessness. What to do? Careless wat... My fault marh. Now i am one step closer to EOY but the feeling is not very good. Have been down lately. Actually stressed up. A lot of things to settle. I found out that for the past few weeks, i have been slacking a lot because i have not been handing on work on time. But i think now i have to buck up liao. EOY is around the corner.

Tomorrow is Teachers' Day. But my class have not prepared anything for Mr Azman. I feel that my class is the worst 2 express class among the whole level. A lot of my classmates have no respect for the class and in the end, councilors are blamed for not upholding the basic discipline in class. Than after that they come and aim me... Exco not easy job man. Underestimated the job liao. Anyway, I hope that Mr Azman really wont mind that he has no present for Teachers' Day. Tomorrow is also ACES day. ACES = All Children Exercise Simultaneously. Children wor... Why concern us arh? We still children meh? LOLZ la...

Well thanks to all who tagged me for the past few days. Know that all of you are very concern about me. I will try to pull myself together but meanwhile please try to tolerated my nonsense and don't get angry and hate me... especially you-know-who. That person should know who la so i don't want to say out. Well, multitasking all this while cause nothing to do and don't know what to do. Have been staring at my com, emoing, doing homework and thinking of things which i can changed.

Speaking of things to changed, people have said that i have changed a lot. I think the cause is that i still have not master the skills of having 2 position at once. Give me more time. When i was given the 1st post, I was quite struggling as i don't know much about being a SC. Now with another exco post on top of it, my burden is a lot BUT i will not give up so Roy, you don't have to go and tell your bro that i m stress and strip me off my post. I am quite enjoying it sometimes. So people like Chong En, Roy, Xian Da, Hui Boon, Jade, Han Inn and many many more... Please give me more time. I hope that by the end of this year, i will be back to my old self.

Oh ya... I have notice that Han Inn have been quite cold to me arh. Don't know what happened. Really hoped that i will not lose him as a 'brother' and a true friend.

Well thats all for now... Until i feel better and stop emoing, people reading this, please stay happy cause if you are happy, i will feel a bit happier too. Got to go... Remember... STAY HAPPY!!!

--------------------------------------------Anthony--------------------------------------------

2008-08-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

Anonymous
more famous quotes

Today had Literature Mid-year exam and was damn stress. Sorry not posting anything for the pass few days. I still have 1 more paper tomorrow so i can't post much today.

Was damn sadded. I calculated all my scores and found out that i did VERY badly for my mid-years. So in order for me to go E1, with at least 3 As, I have to work extremely hard for the end-of-year exams. I have to score 91/100 for English for EOY exams in order to get A, which like impossible. But I would really want to thank those who gave supported me and cheer me up whenever i feel lonely. Thanks to Hui Boon, Ying Wei, Roy and many more people, whose names i have no time to type out, for always replying my sms and chatting with me whenever i am feeling lonely.

My target is to get into E1 next year. So in order to reached my target, i had to stop playing computer and really concentrate for that final lap of Lower Secondary life. That final rush needs preparations and so i have to start studying now. So if i did not reply your sms or did not contact you, please do not get angry at me.

For the last part, i think that getting to E1 would be impossible but nonetheless i will still try for her sake... Or maybe mine? That does not matters. What matters most is getting into E1 with a good score.

OK... Nothing to say like. Just like to say that i have learned to become a emo guy for the pass few days but will try to stay cheerful. Got to go liao...

--------------------------------------------Anthony--------------------------------------------

How to be Strong?!

2008-08-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

How to be strong?
Well let me tell you this story.
A long long time ago,
Where only the 4 elements exist.
In the 4, Water and Fire are enemies.
Water wanted to win fire so badly that it changed itself into ice hoping to win fire.
But fire just melted ice within a few minutes time.
After listening, or rather reading, this story,
Do you know whats its trying to say?
Heres what it is saying:
It is not how many technique you know,
But is how well you show and display your skills.
How you master your skill is very inportant!!!

Addition position for me...

2008-08-18T04:52:00.000-07:00

Today was abnormal for me. Everything thing seems to have duplicated. OK... Maybe over reacting. This is what happened. Went to school at 7.30am. Found out that i did not do Chinese summary so i tried to rush but ended up have meeting. Than went to Mr Seah's homeroom for meeting. Meeting was about some people in the council will be demoted, some promoted. So first they announce the person who will be promoted to be ex-co. I will be working along with Ben, Scott, Faris, Issac, Wi Li, Kester and Han Jie. I was stun! Like... Wa... Now 1 more position? Stress sia. First is SC of choir than now ex-co of council. A lot of work sia! Haiz. But i think my CCA points at the end of my 4 years will be a lot loh. Never mind... Back to topic. There is 3 people which is demoted to PC (Probational Councilor). Well after that ex-co was called out of the room while the rest don't know do what. Than Boey, current President of Student Council, called us to close the shuttle at the canteen to prevent people from skipping assembly. After I close 2 of the shuttle, which was quite hard because I SHORT, the rest of my fellow councilors walked pass me and said Hi Ex-co! Hate it loh. Even though i ex-co also no need to treat me like stranger marh. I am still a student right? Still a councilor right? Haiz... For that whole day people keep saying Hi ex-co! Damn irritating but i know they are just fooling around. Haiz... Hope that tomorrow will be better! Thats all for now.

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir 2008 and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

Raffles Voices, Tiggatigger Outing, NDP Performance, IPW Performance...

2008-08-12T04:36:00.000-07:00

Wow... So long never post liao... Haha... So many people hunting me down to get me to update my blog... Haiz. Anyway, let me start from the 3rd of August.

Raffles Voices --- 5th August
Wow... Went for the RI concert and found out that their choir is a SATB (soprano, alto, tenor and bass) choir. Their performance was superb la... Of course la... Gold choir leh... Lead by Mr Toh Ban Sheng. The songs which they sang are: "Resonet in Laudibus", "All Creatures Now", "Who Shall have my Lady Fair","Set me as a Seal upon your Heart","Cerf-volant","Exsultate Justi","Chrystus Pan Sie Narodzil","Lux Aurumque","Jaakobin Isot Pojat"and "Pokpok Alimpako". After that was intermission. Than comes the interesting part: "Ave Regina","Ama Namen","Rondes","Blackbird", "Baylere", "Twinkle, Twinkle, little star" (OMG my favourite!!! So Damn Nice!!!), "Ta Tikee Tei", "Flying Free" (Wa Lao... With flute somemore... Pro and Nice!!!) and "Do you hear the people sing ?". After all the songs, we went back and me and Han Inn took 162M all the way to Xian Da's house to get our bag than left for 74 and reached home at around 11pm++. Damn tired after that but was very happy cause i found out that male choir can do very well too. Now i will try harder to improve my choir!

Tiggatigger Outing --- 8th August
Well, went out with the Tiggatiggers and had fun loh. Actually, today was to celebrate Youth Day, Racial Harmony Day and National Day together. Wa lao... So damn fun loh. Every class was suppose to set up a stall to sell something or game for our school's carnival. My class choose to sell cocktail jelly. I was the second customer of my class stall la... Haha... But the jelly tasted not so good. Not what i expected. Well, the carnival lasted for 2 hours and i was suppose to be on councilor duty but ended up slacking at Han Inn's stall. After school, the Tiggers asked me to go out to watch movie with them. I called Han Inn along. The Tiggers + Han Inn, went to Vivo, eat something light, than went for the movie 'Money No Enough 2'. The show was damn touching. Han Inn and I cried during the saddest part where the grandma sacrifice for her granddaughter. Haiz... After that went to the fountain and played with water like what I did the last time i went there. Was damn fun but was 75% wet!!! HAHA... Went home after that.

NDP Performance --- 9th August
Today is Singapore's 43th Birthday!!! But also, we, the 380-strong choir, can perform for the last time with Mr Lennie as our conductor. Its quite sadded la... Even as i am thinking of it now, I am at the verge of crying. All of us have worked together for a very long time and have worked very hard. There is this bond in us that brings all of us together. Now, today, all our effort will pay off but at the cost of our friendships. We have made a lot of friends and we may not be able to contact them anymore! *tears dripping* Whats worse is that we did not see Ms Sylvia proper for the last time. We may not be able to see Mr Lennie, Ms Lim and Ms Sim anymore!*more tears dripping* Well this NDP is the best NDP which will always stay in my life FOREVER!!! NDP'08 ROX!!! I remember as we were preparing for the last song, Mr Lennie shouted, "Choir... This is the last song. Do it at your best. i really love you choir & i'm going to miss you." Hearing this, I was like going to have tears dropping from my eyes but i have to hold it. That kind of feeling is like you are going to lose something which you love most! That kind of feeling also include loneliness... Similar to what i felt few years back. Loneliness, cold and empty. But most importantly, Soulless. The definition of Soulless in MY dictionary means to be literary living without a soul. Which also mean that living without a life. Losing something you had for so long, and that you have already engross in the relationship (not BGR... FRENSHIP!!!), that feeling really kills! Well nothing much to say liao.
As my last tear drops, I would like to wish all my NDP frens and all who helped to stay happy and to live each day to its fullest. Keep in touch OK? Hoping that we could work together again to perform for another NDP!

IPW Performance --- 10th August
Woke up late. 8am. Rushed and reached the bus stop at 8.08am but missed the bus. Check Iris and found out next bus arrives in 27min. ZZZ. So called Yun Hong and told him i will be late. Than tried to hail for taxis but couldn't until 8.27am. Got onto the taxi and reached Hougang
Mall at 8.35am++. Luckily i was not the latest. Haha... Than have some warm-up and training. At 9.30am, we were released for lunch until 11am. Me, Ying Wei, Gabriel, Brandon and Kang Jie went to Mac to eat. After that went to changed. Halfway changing, Miss Mo called and asked all of us to go back for a run through. After we changed, we rushed back to the stage area and have a run through. After that we got sometime to prepare and than the GOH, Eunice Olsen (some cousin of Keith's), arrived and all performance starts. 1st is Wu Shu. Damn cool. Next is Dance group and finally is our turn. We performed 3 piece of songs. "O Sing Out With Pleasure", "Tis' The Simple Things In Life" and "Stronger With Time". I think the best was the last piece. After that we were dismissed and Ying Wei, Chu Rui, Chong En and I went to PS to watch movie again. We reached PS and decided to buy tickets 1st. We bought 1.30pm show for 'Money No Enough 2'. Ya i know some of you will say i very stupid cause watched twice. Haha. Went for lunch at KFC than went up for movie. Even though its the 2nd time i watch, I still cried. Haiz... But Chong En cried the worst! Anyway after that went to arcade and played Initial D with Chu Rui. He won Chong En and Ying Wei. Than i played with him. Won him twice lost to him twice also. After that we all went to Chu Rui's house to play basketball but Chong En left halfway. Than at around 8.30pm i took bus home.

And thats all... haizzz... Hpoing that time will heal all wounds.

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

3 in 1 post...

2008-08-03T01:59:00.000-07:00

Well, firstly, I would like to apologize for not blogging for the pass three days. So this is a 3 day in 1 post.

On Thursday, nothing much happened except that there was this Australian Mathematics Competition by Westpac, Australia's First Bank. When we get this paper, we were like laughing and laughing away because, what does a bank got to do with this? No link! Anyway, the paper's 1st question was damn easy la, give away question. The question is: The value of 2008 + 8002 is? Easy right? But wait until you hear the last few questions: Let us call a sum of integers cool if the the first and the last terms are 1 and each term differs from its neighbors by at most 1. For example, the sum of 1+2+3+4+3+2+3+3+3+2+3+3+2+1 is cool. How many terms does it take to write 2008 as a cool sum if we use no more terms than necessary? This question took me like 10min to solve. Anyway, we took this competition before recess and it eat into our lesson time by 1hour. After the competition, we went for our lessons.

On Friday, its the start of the lunar's seventh month. Well had to offer prayers every week. Anyway, went to school and blar blar blar. Than after school, we had NDP rehearsal. Wa... Went through everything three times. Damn sian.

On Saturday, had Chinese tuition before we assemble for NDP. After everyone assemble, we boarded the bus and set off for Marina Bay. This performance will be as serious as the actual day. Than on that day suppose to help Jade to collect $ but they don't want to pay. Than now Jade dao me as if its my fault like that. So sadded la. Hope that everything will be over soon. Haiz... Well nothing much happened so signing off than.

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

Whitley Secondary School Investiture!!!

2008-07-30T06:42:00.000-07:00

Wow. Went for Whitley Sec School investiture. Damn cool. But let me blog about this morning 1st. This morning was damn tried. Don't know why also. Woke up 6.30am than get ready and left home to wait for bus at around 7.15am. Reached school at 7.32am than found out that i never sign the consent form for the Evergreen Sec Sch NE festival thingy. Than just before going for mass workout, Boey asked me if i want to go Whitley Sec for investiture. I said OK because firstly, i have not gone for any investiture this year. Secondly, its HER school so maybe can catch a glimpse of her. Than i was told that i will be going with Ben and Li Yang. After that went for mass workout. After that was Art. damn boring la. Was like chatting all the way with those NPCC people. Than next lesson was PE. slack all the way. Than came recess. Wa... alot of things to settle. Hiaz. Firstly, I have to tell Mrs Tan that i can't go to Evergreen le. Secondly, i had to get blazer for the investiture. Than after recess, I was released from lesson. Wa damn shiok!!! Miss 3 hours of English (English(CO), Literature and English(RW))!!! Went home to change than set off for Whitley Sec.

On the way there, I smsed her and said that i will be going to her school for their investiture. Than when we reached, had a tour around the school than found out that Whitley is actually bigger than Montfort. Wow... And Whitley is the same age as Singapore, 43 years old. OK saw some of their facilities. Than went back to the performing arts' room to rest and cool down. Than we waited from 12.45pm to 1.45pm than the investiture start. Before it starts, she told me that she also going to the hall. But i did not see her neither did she see me. At 1.35pm, we were escorted up to their hall and at 1.50pm, the whole thing finally started. The principal spoke for a while, which i did not really pay attention to, but i could catch a phrase which i always use: Gratitude is the key to everything. So show some gratitude and not attitude whenever you are doing things. The outgoing Head Prefect was, surprisingly, our Ex-President of the Student Council R. Saravanan's cousin. Anyway, it ended at around 2.20pm and we were told to proceed back to the performing arts' room for some refreshment. After the refreshment, we went back. Ben and Li Yang went back to school while i alighted at AMK hub.

The reason why i alighted at hub was, quite obvious, to test my luck and our fate. Knowing that she was going to the hub, i tested my luck and i walked around hub once but i could not see her. Maybe we're not fated? Is fate really designed for each and everyone of us and it can't be changed? Well i don't believe that! I believe that one's fate and destiny is in one's hand. Anyway, after that i took MRT to DG station and waited for a long time for Ying Wei and Roy to show up. After that they told me that venue had changed to Orchard. LOL. When we reached Orchard, we were like because all of us wear differently, we walk out at different timing and say hi to each other. So Ying Wei and Roy went out 1st. Than i went out from the other side and i was looking at my handphone as i walk pass Jade. I thought she never see me but she saw me long time ago. ZZZ. Anyway went to collect her Ipod. Than jalan jalan around than come home. Reached home at around 8pm. Well nothing else liao.

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

2008-07-29T06:23:00.000-07:00

Haiz... Damn sian. Today nothing much in the morning in school. Had Science mock test... Think i fail liao la. Its like I see the question than must use common sense to answer. Some of the calculation i can get wrong somemore... ZZZ. Than after that take back Maths paper... I stunned. I scored full marks. Well thats my 1st Maths full mark paper. So happy.

Well after school had choir. Went through the song 'Sing of Love and Music'. Haiz... did not finish. Than we talked about 'Impossible Dreams'. That reminds me of what my friends said, "Impossible is nothing if there is possibility!" Well damn sadded cause I cant do much about it. Haiz. Halfway through choir, Ying Wei and I decided to call the project 'TILUP'. Only 2 people know this so far and i do not wish to reveal. After choir, pumped the choir 23 but half way through 2 people walk off. Damn frustrating la!!! Than ex-co also kenna 15. When i was doing, Daren told me not to do because of what happened a few days ago. Something about the car hitting my hand. Than he tried to stop me from doing the push-ups but i insisted. Well after that went home.

Ying Wei's attitude totally changed loh. After we kenna pumped, he took his bag and walk to the bus stop. I ran up to him and tried to talk to him but he damn quite la! Well hope that tomorrow will be different. Well nothing to say liao.

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

2008-07-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

The best way to make it through...

Is to listen to your heart.

In life, we have to make decision
that aren't easy. We're afraid that
whatever choice we make will upset
someone we love!

It is at these times that we need
to stop and listen to the voice
inside us. If we listen just to
the wishes of those around us and
ignore our own feelings,we will not
be truly happy!

Listen to what you know is right
and stand by that because
when you do, you will be happy!

Haiz... Rainbow after a storm?

2008-07-28T04:13:00.000-07:00

Today was rather tried cause of something that happened yesterday night. Was afraid that she would not talk or rather would not even reply me. I could not sleep the whole night (maybe not whole night. Slept at around 1.30am) and woke up with a headache this morning. Was damn tired... But went to school for councilor meeting but found out that i was late. Than because of the canteen duty, all lower sec councilors owe Feng Hua 200 push-ups. Today we only cleared 70... Damn tired liao. Haiz... Than after that i went of for duties.

1st lesson was Science. I was like rushing through my workbook as Mr Azman was check the answer. But manage to finish.

2nd was Literature. Mr James was damn boring la... No offense... Almost fell asleep. Thats when i thought of a poem. Coming up on the next post.

Recess... Was released 10mins before recess to eat and than at 11am sharp, had to do duty.

After recess was Chinese. Mr Lam wants us to talk about the pamphlet that we had done. Today only do a few... Tomorrow sure i kenna 1. Haiz.

After that was Science again. Went through another chapter and also had revision for tomorrow's mock test.

Last period... HISTORY!!! Sianz... damn bored... Talk about Raffles, than answer some question and than released.

After school i went for a short meeting with Ying Wei and Miss Mo. About the choir tee 1 la. Now almost decided liao. Going to send for printing soon. After that went home and reached at around 3pm. Was damn happy that she is no longer angry liao. HURRAY!!! YEH!!! OK... Urm... also told her about the thing on my msn, which took me like 30min to tell, and i think after i told her that she will dao me... Cause until now like atmosphere quite wrong... Well wish me luck than...

This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ!!!

All happening in my life

2008-07-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

Sianz... A lot of things happen. OK from 22nd to 25th nothing much happened except for some small matters.

Urm 23rd of July i contacted 1 of my primary school friend. Than i have something which i need her to help and at first she agree to help but in the end, which is today after the conversation, she suddenly say that she very pek cek than don't want to help lehz. Sianz la. Now i have to find someone to help me. But i don't think anyone will help... Damn sadded... Haiz. Anyway i think the reason she is pek cek is because she not feeling well than i keep on disturbing her. Haiz... Feel very very sorry. But i can't do anything except to apologize. Well Hoping that we could still be friends.

Secondly, I was very lucky to be alive. Actually on the 26th of July, i escaped death 3 times in a row. It all happen when i was crossing the road half way. The road has 4 lanes, 2 lanes for each side without anything to separate the 2 sides, and i was crossing the road half way. Than a lot of cars was coming by so i waited at the middle for all the cars to pass. When i was waiting, 1 car was, i think, driving damn near the line of the middle lane because the mirror hit my back. With common sense, i turned and face the other side but while i was turning, another car came by and the mirror hit straight into my arm. At that time i could not feel my arm and i was like feeling very bad but i could not stay in the middle of the road so i don't care about anything and i just ran across the road. Just when i almost had both my legs on the side curb, a car went by and hit my left leg. After that i quickly ran to the stairs and went home. I could not feel my left arm and leg. Than i was like collapsed on the ground and everything was quite blur. I closed my eyes and everything started to spin. Than after a while, everything was black. Than after a few moment, i opened my eyes and found myself lying on the ground. After that i quickly rushed home, bath and felt into deep slumber immediately.

27th of July, morning. I woke up and found that my whole arm was in terrible pain but luckily, no bruises was found. Lucky me to escape death after 3 cars bang into me. Roy than called my and ask my to go book badminton court with him. So i agreed and meet him at around 11am. After that we went to the sports hall and the CC but all the courts were booked. So we were deciding where to go and Roy suggest that we go down to Woodlands. So we took a bus from Hougang to Woodlands and reached there at 2pm. Haiz... Than called Jade to come down but instead, her sister ask us to go up. So i went up and than heard people laughing and laughing. Than i was like, did i come to the wrong place? LOLZ. After sometime of crazy laughing for Jade and crazy waiting and ears being tortured for me, we went down and find a place at the playground to play. We played till somewhere at 4pm++ we had to go. Than Jade ask us to go her house to drink green tea than my reaction is same as Ying Wei: Green Tea freeze sperm!!! LOL. But we accepted the kind offer and Ying Wei also gave Jade a cup, which is a free gift at mac, which Jade was trying to get hold of. I was like wow... How kind of him... HAHA... Something not right arh... HAHA. Than after that, went to the main road and sent Roy off in a cab while Ying Wei and I went to take MRT home.

Ok thats all for today. Oh ya... Ying Wei say the way i sign off very common so heres something new. This is Anthony, TT5, SC of choir, Participant for NDP combine choir and a idiot, signing off!!! BYEZ

A very sad incidence happened

2008-07-22T06:26:00.000-07:00

Today went to school thinking that everything will be normal but didn't expect such big things to happen. Mr Daniel Ho, our school canteen operator, passed away yesterday at 5.10pm. I was a very sad news to hear. I was totally sadden because i was talking to him yesterday before school start. He even taught me and my fellow councilor a lesson. He told us not to be scared of those upper secondary student. I think that Mr Ho is a very cheerful person and very helpful because he will stand up for us if any of the students disobey the councilors. The news was officially passed down to us from the VPs and P. Well everyone was very sadded than. To show some respect, lets observe 1 min of silence for our dearest, sweetest and kindest Mr Ho. Hope that his family will be strong to take this blow.

Second thing was that today was damn boring. Have 3 hours Maths... Damn tired la. 1st hour, was the NSW Maths competition from 12.45pm to 1.45pm. After that, I went for Maths lesson from 1.45pm to 2.30pm. Than i had to stay back for some additional Maths lesson from 2.30pm to 3.30pm. At 3.30pm, i went for the last Maths Olympiad lesson at 3.30pm all the way till 4.30pm. So from 12.45pm to 4.30pm i have Maths all the way, non-stop, for like almost 4 hours. The Olympiad teacher was like the last time going to see us than the whole class was like chey....... Haiz... Going to miss her lohz. Hiaz... I also took some photos with our teacher Ms Tay.

Nothing to talk liao... BYE BYE!!!

Everything that happened and everything that is different

2008-07-20T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hi... long time no post... Haha... OK serious now. I have a lot of things to blog about. Well lets make it 1 by 1. First up, to say something about the incidents which happened a few week ago and i have posted it 2 post ago. About Chong En. I think he a bit forgive me but after i read his blog, i like totally disappointed. But never mind... I will try my best to make everything back.

Next, also 2 blog ago, about THAT person. I don't know why but i don't have that kind of feeling anymore liao. I think that is what you call puppy-love. I swear... I don't have that feeling anymore. So this have come to an end liao ba.

Next... For those friends out there please stop spreading rumors about me. I know that my history is very clean but you all can no need to add black ink onto my white history list. I really don't like that girl called Jing Hui la. If you all continue, i will dao whoever who keep say. And when i say dao, i will dao that person all the way till after NDP. No one really knows who i like. You all can say i quite flirt but there is only 1 person which I notice ever... But thats top secret.

Lastly, today very sianz... Than i went down all the way to Woodlands with Roy. After we reached Woodlands, than Roy suggest that we go find Jade to get his $100. So we walked from Causeway point to her house. Than after we reached, Roy called Jade and ask her to come down but than she don't want to. Than Roy asked me to shout her name at the back alley than I shout like 2 time but no respond so we were like OK call again. After the second phone call, Jade came down with her sister and told us to run. Than after that we questioned them than Jade say Sherman was there and she wants to avoid him i think. So after that we went to buy dunch from the hawker center for Jade and her sister, Jamey. After that we went to some spot near Jade's house to slack. Than Jamey kept disturbing Roy. Was damn funny... Haha. After that Jeremy joined in and he sat at that area to do some work. Than we left Jeremy out and we go to the playground to 'play'. After awhile, Jade had to go home for her tuition. So we all walk her to her house downstairs than when we got near, we heard Jade's father 'shouting' and so me, Roy and Jeremy was like don't know them and walk away. I was like die sia... Her father saw me before and if he see me again, Jade will sure get into trouble so i drop my head and walk faster in order for him to miss the chance of seeing me. After that me, Roy and Jeremy took 161 home. Than i transfer to 74 than to 55.

OK thats all for now... BYE BYE

Reflections (2)

2008-07-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

Hiaz... Damn sianz... Went to school than everything was normal except with some nasty words from my classmates but i don't really care. What really sadden me was that in the morning, Chong En gave me back the present which me and Ying Wei bought for him. Wa... than morning after i get the thing back than very sadded... Just feel like wanna be alone but cannot cause everywhere i go i will see people. Than suddenly got this intention to run under the rain but ended up no rain. After my lesson that day, i waited for 30min for Han Inn they all but they were not release yet so i went off on my own. I walked to the stadium than suddenly got this very strange thing that happened. I suddenly heard some sounds going 'I HATE YOU~~~'. Damn scary. After that i just chiong all the way to the stadium put my bag at one side and chiong for 4 rounds. At first when i started running, i kept on thinking on what had happened within a few days' time. I really tired very hard to keep myself tired so that i will not think and so i ran all 4 rounds in like 10min++. I was stunned... NAFFA sure pass liao la. OK, stop being random. Actually on the fourth round, i was very tired although i wanted to go on. I was feeling odd. Something like suddenly my surrounding very hot than changed to very cold. Than my heart suddenly very pain. So i stop, rest and than walk to the bus stop to take a bus home. Than reached home damn tired so i took a nap. Than everything was normal after that nap. I still don't understand why i hear that voice/sound. Very scary la... If you were me, you wont be sitting down there laughing at me now... Haiz going to sleep liao. Got alot of test tomorrow. Nightz.

Reflections with a painful lesson...

2008-07-14T06:28:00.000-07:00

OK ... First up is to say sorry for not blogging for so long. Secondly, to inform those that is very eager to read my new post, i will not blog for the next few months. Don't ask me why. Thirdly, for the pass few events, i will blog whenever i have time but for now, let me tell you a tragedy that happened to me and my surroundings. Everything just happens and i don't even have time to react to things that concern or may not concern me. Actually a lot of stuff happened.

Secondly, something happened to me and my junior/friend Chong En. We were like having a chat. The convo was :

Chong En: I starting to hate u sia !!!
anthony: really?
Chong En: last time de u better
Chong En: pamela also think so
Chong En: to be honest
Chong En: we can say u r getting prouder
anthony: can say that...
Chong En: more like "high class"
anthony: i dont know wat happen also
anthony: hoping that my life will come to an end
anthony: i am very tired liao
anthony: feel like sleeping for eternity
Chong En: u think me and pamela like that very easy izzit
Chong En: trying to be sociable to tok to u
Chong En: then like everytime mmmm
Chong En: aaaa
Chong En: ooo
anthony: mmmm aaa ooo???
Chong En: haizz !!
Chong En: ur reply
Chong En: then is like
anthony: Oo
Chong En: we feel that u like keep toking to so call high rank ppl
Chong En: then
Chong En: neglect ur old friend
Chong En: hai
Chong En: finally say out liao !!
anthony: did i...
Chong En: thats y is like
Chong En: i trying to avoid u
Chong En: but is like
Chong En: in the end still tk la
Chong En: tok *
anthony: lol
Chong En: haiz
anthony: ok i try to find my mistake..
anthony: sorry arh
Chong En: lol
Chong En: is no mistake
Chong En: is about ur attitude
Chong En: mayb we r not compatable as friend ba
anthony: that is part of a mistake...
anthony: cause i distracted
Chong En: ..
anthony: reason cont tell you
Chong En: lets try to avoid each other ok ?
anthony: how can?
Chong En: i delete ur contact le
anthony: wa like that la
anthony: i will try to change ba...

After that, he sent me smses saying:

Chong En: Now is like not your fault so i have already delete your contact le so this will be the last message plus msn please stay happy.
Anthony: Well i will try to change... And settle my stuff 1st cause this few days too many things happened... Will go back to being your old friend when everything is ok... Hoping that at that time you will still be able to take me as a friend... Stay happy...
Chong En: This will be the last message from me to you and i wont bug you le and please dun reply.

I was super sad after his sms and i just feel like breaking down. Just break down and don't care about things liao. Can just end my life but than again, i have a lot of things to attend to. Things like getting our relationship back, settle family problems( sometimes serious sometime not ) and my everyday life( school ). Don't wish to talk about it anymore... Just hope that Chong En will be happy for the time being. Although being a buddist, i just pray for him. Dear god, please protect my friend, Chong En, from all harms and evils. Keep him happy and may his life be happier without me. With all my hearts i pray...

Lastly, about my school. Things get quite bad in school. As i am put to meet my limit as a councilor and a student, i feel that i have too much pressure. That pressure is nothing. What made it worst was the demoralizing words that came out from my friends. Some was so bad that i could just like jump down the building. The reason why i don't want to talk back because i don't want to make the matter worst. I would rather i suffer than people around suffer. The rest of the matters that happened in school i shall keep it to myself for the time being.

Those friends out there which have read this post and wish to confront me, i suggest you give up. And those people who wants to continue to be friends of mine heed my words... Don't talk about this in school... Outside will be ok but not in school. If i hear anything of such in school, i will seriously break several ties with that person. I very serious about this. And if i don't feel like talking about it, please do not push me further... Thank you and may those who read this be happy...

Old Friend, Old Memories

2008-07-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

Haha... Today woke up quite late. Like around 7am. Than notice it was raining. Very sadded... Haiz cause today have meeting at 7.45am. After i changed, eat breakfast, pack bag and went out, i reach the bus stop at around 7.30am. Cannot take it liao. Bo bian have to take cab and luckily i was able to get the cab by 7.35am. Than reached school at around 7.48am. Very sadded cause late liao... than i ran from foyer to the councilor area and than i found out meeting was canceled and i was SUPER the SUPER the SUPER the SUPER the PISSED OF LA... Its like if no meeting than i don't have to take cab and reach school so early right? Never mind la... Whats done cannot be undone what... Haiz... Than i like super dao to everyone... Sorry arh... Cant help it... SORRY!!! Than after that went for lesson 8.20am. So early la... Suppose to slack all the way until 9am 1 la... Than like wa lao... President ask us to go back... Haiz. Than 1st lesson at 9am was ART... Boring Art. Had to complete the robot drawing and color it within 45min. During the lesson, Alden told us to pay up for the class tees and book the number that we want. I paid and said i wanted 7 but Alden told me that Edmund took 7 liao. Haiz... than i went up to Edmund to plead him to let me take 7. I had to come out with funny funny reasons like: My girlfriend favorite number is 7. But despite my many times of request, he refused. Than i begged him for 1 last time and this time i offer $2 for the number. I think he saw my sincerity because he sold me the number for $2. I quickly told Alden to change. After that it was the end of Art lesson liao.

Next up, PE. Must complete NAFFA de incline pull-up. Than 1 of the 1st four to take 1st.
Than while is was preparing for the pull-up, i was quite stress because the other 3 is UG group and they can do very well. Felt very pressurized than suddenly Roniel walked pass and told me to think that Jade is looking at me. My 1st reaction was very stunned than all my classmates was like who is Jade??? I don't care liao but i don't know why, when Roniel was looking at me do and after that sentence from Roniel, I felt very energized. Maybe its because of this thing called 'Loves Between Friends'. It is the love between me, Roniel and maybe Jade that gave me the strength ba. I compete with the other 3 and i manage to do 42 pull-ups within 30 seconds. The others was like 2 of them have 46 and the other 40. Than after i have finished, i went over to talk to Roniel for awhile cause he also got lesson. I told him to watch what he was saying. Hiaz... After PE was recess and after that have 3 hours of ENGLISH!!! After that school ends and i went to Tristan house. After that i left his house at around 5.50pm. I reached the bus stop and guess who i saw. I saw Xin Wei and his stead. Xin Wei was my schoolmate and also in Townsville Badminton School Team. Actually during the days when we had badminton training, i hated him to the core but outside badminton training, i treat him like how i treat everyone else. After chatting with him, i found out that he was last among the whole of Ang Mo Kio Secondary School Normal Academic student( 82/82 ). I was stunned to hear that news than i asked if its because of his stead and an obvious no was in my head before he even said anything. He said that his stead is in express and her score was not really good too. After that my bus came and we took the same bus. In the bus, we talk about things that happened in the past and friends whom we knew. After i alighted from the bus, i could not stop myself from thinking what had happened in the pass. Up till now, i still think of it. Haiz... maybe i should do as others have said," Have selective memories and choose things to remember." Hiaz... got to go liao.. Sleep and forget everything. BYE BYE...

Today's surprise...

2008-07-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

This event was linked to yesterday night's conference. Roy, Jade, Ying Wei, Chong En and I had a conference yesterday, talking about where are the suitable places which we can go. Than Chong En suddenly said that he feel very left out. We kept on trying and trying to cheer him up, but what made it worst was that Jade was also pissed off. So at the end of the day, left me, Roy and Ying Wei on the conference and because both Jade and Chong en were angry, we decided to prepare a surprise for the both of them.

So today, went out to meet Ying Wei at around 10am to head down to Woodlands while Roy meet up with Chong En and take 161 to Woodlands to meet us. So met Ying Wei and reached Woodlands at around 10.30am. Wanted to buy cards for both Chong En( because his birthday coming soon ) and Jade( made her angry and emo the night before ). But we reached too early and we like walked the whole of Causeway Point just to wait for Popular to open. While walking, me and Ying Wei was quite stunned by how big Causeway Point is. After walking, at around 11am, we went to Popular to get cards for them. Instead of buying cards, we saw this very interesting object which have words of encouragement and it also look very cool. So we decided to buy that instead of just boring boring cards. After we bought it, we asked the receptionist to help us warp up with warping paper. We paid and than went off to meet Roy and party.

Roy was suppose to meet with Chong En than meet us but ended up after meeting Chong En, he went to Jade's house to meet Jade. Than he went back all the way to Woodlands MRT station to meet us. Haiz... me and Ying Wei spent too much time choosing the present liao. Meet up with Roy at cant remember what time but was rather afternoon liao. Than we took MRT to habourfront station and went to Vivo. After we reached Vivo, we gave Roy a very important task; to occupy Chong En while we look for Secret Recipes to buy a cake for Chong En. After we found the place, Chong En called me and i told him to walk up to meet us. We bought the cake and sang the Happy Birthday song. After that we went to food republic to eat lunch. After lunch we decided to go to Changi Airport to walk around. When we reached the Airport, Jade said she feeling dizzy so we ask her to sit down and rest awhile while Ying Wei help Jade. After that we went to walk around... See look see look... Than went to eat dinner. After that sent Jade home and than took a cab from Woodlands to Hougang because Roy and Chong En was very late liao. Than after that i went home. For people who knows the full detail of what happens, i am cutting the story short because as you know the saying goes: Picture speaks a thousand word. So more pic and less words ... haha ... Enjoy...

NDP Family Day!!!

2008-07-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

Wa...Very busy. Had to go school at around 9am cause i had extra lesson by Ms Yap. But i found out that i woke up at 9am. I was totally stunned. I quickly wash-up, grab a bread, pack my bag and run off to the bus stop. I reached the bus stop at around 9.20am than took a bus to school and went for lesson. I stepped into class than everyone was like cheering, "Wa... early bird!!!" Thats my class alright. After i settle down, i was given homework and i was glad that i could finish on time. Lesson ended quite early; like around 10.45am instead of 11am. After that i ran all the way to my cousin's house to pass her the tickets i have for the NDP. I had only 4 tickets so my cousin and his hubby, my small aunt and uncle are all going to watch.

After passing her the tickets, i went back to school cause had to reach by 12noon. Luckily i was on time. After everyone settled down, Miss Mo asked those who are not so sure of the moves to go practice. Than Miss Mo found out that she had 2 more tickets so she asked who wanted the tickets than me and Roniel each took 1. After around 30min of practice or so, the bus finally came. Board the bus and everything went nicely. Reached the Greek threate and found out that all the schools there had already changed into the attire. Only Montfort haven change. So after we put down our bags, we took the attire and went to the toilet to change. Ying Wei look damn cute in the attire lohz... and Han Inn look very cool. Haha!!! I look damn odd cause its like very small than sleeve very long. Haiz but generally, i looked quite nice. After that, we settled down. Costume for those who have not get the other time was also ready for collection. Than dinner arrived and we was rushing through our dinner because we had get ready for the show lehz. After dinner, Ms Sim told us that we had new position. Than we followed the new position and entered the platform. Actually at that time i wasn't nervous at all. I was quite looking forward to it and the time was finally here!

As we perform one song after the other, I can feel the heat in me that want too burst out with excitement and shout," WELL DONE!!!!" But i could not because its obvious to see an idiot jumping around and shouting. After the show we had to leave the stage and than everything was like before. But something was different this time round. We had to learn the dance step for the finale. Quite fun... HAHA!!! Well something which i found out and cleared all misunderstandings. Remember a few days ago, i said SOMEONE hugged me from and i found out the reason why. Not because that person was fond of me but because that person was having a bet with her friends. Lame right ... haha!!! Photos are taken by Jeremy this time and will be posted below... Enjoy...

Stress... Frustrated... SAD!!!!

2008-07-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

Well today nothing much happened in school. But thats something which i don't understand... Why must two people quarrel over some small things? Sometime its really some small things like... I don't know la... But very small matters. Maybe like having the wrong impression of someone or something, personality don't go well between 2 people and maybe one person does not like the other. But when this fights/quarrels starts, the people who suffer most is not those who are quarreling but it is those friend that the people who quarrels. Worst of all, i am the both party's friend. I am really like a middle person cause only I know of such matter. No one is able to help. But i post this here, is to ask for opinions. Put yourself in my shoes. How would you cope when 2 of you friend, 1 is the friend which you cherish a lot and the other is the friend that you never want to loss, starts a quarrel and ask you help out. Maybe i should just stand one side pretend nothing happens but i will feel that guilt in me which tells me that i am really useless. Maybe i should help 1 of them but after that i will loss someone that was once my friend. To tell you the truth, i don't people considered as my friend when i was in Primary 1 all the way to Primary 5. At Primary 5, i made my 1st friend and until now i am still in contact with him. I began to make more friends. But before i get to Primary 5, the feelings that i have is like as if i was all lonely in this whole. Well things get better as each year passes by and now is like
quite fine until recently such thing happen. Well... Can't comment much about it. Have to solve this ASAP. Ok if you have any good opinions for me pls tag at my tagboard. Well regarding the rehearsal on Saturday, i have some photos taken but i will take sometime to post so here are only some of them.

Here are some snapshot i took on the bus.

Credits to Miss Mo for talking the photos for me... Ok GTG sleep for... BYEZ ALL AND GOOD NIGHT!!!

Interesting Folks At St John's Home For The Elderly

2008-06-30T05:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to school late! OMG... got councilor meeting than must reach school by 7.30am but i reached school at around 7.43am. But luckily, the meeting also started late. Than i remembered that Jade said that if someone born in the year of chicken saw a dragon, he/she will have good luck. So i am suspecting that lady luck will come back again cause last year i was very unlucky. Or rather SUPER SUPER SUPER UNLUCKY!!! Ok back to main point. The meeting was going through of the rules of being a councilor for the new councilors and Ying Wei is in it. So after the rules thingy was buddy system and Ying Wei is not attached to me. SAD SAD SAD!!! Anyway, after that every happened as normal; Went for duty, than went up for lesson.

After that at around 1.30pm we were released for short lunch than we set off for the St John's home. Throughout the whole journey... i have been thinking of something. Haiz... i know what my friends will be thinking but thats not what it is... Its something worst than that. But its P,C and S (quoted from Roy)... Private, Confidential and Secretive. So cannot tell you all... Haha. Than when we reached, we have a tour short tour around the home than we have to prepare for the magic show. And i am very glad that i am 1 of the magicians haha. Well very fun... Talked to a few old folks and showed them some tricks. Than i notice this very interesting old lady. She told us that she is 92 years old and she had 3 children. One in Australia, one in America, one is a principal at St Andrew's JC. Than she shared with us her life in the pass and how she learned English in a very hard way. She also said that the way we do things now is very different from what they use to do in the past. Very interesting old lady. After that we had to go back.

On the way back, things started to flashed pass my mind again. I saw flashbacks of what happened a few days back and i started to reflect on what are the things that happened and could i have make things happened in another way? Felt like a knife just stabbed into my heart. And also have the feeling that i wanna cry... But i could not. Firstly, i am still outside. Secondly, i have not cried for the pass 8 years. And lastly, i don't know why but i could not find the reason to cry. That feeling... Want to cry but just cant cry it out. Arh... Don't wanna say anymore about it liao. After that we reached school and i went home straight.

Strange encounter on 29/6/08

2008-06-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

OMG... Can't believe what I saw. I myself could not even believe my own eyes. Yesterday, at around 8pm, as i was going to my cousin house to do some computer stuff, i saw 3 continuous lightning and than within that split second, behind a cloud i saw a figure. A figure with a very long body moving behind the clouds. I was stunned. Than i remembered that Ying Wei saw a dragon just a few days ago. Than i didn't quite believe him. But yesterday's encounter made me believed him. Its quite scary because theres lightning but no thunder and its like 3 or 4 lightning all coming consecutively. Than after the 3rd lightning, i saw this figure. Very scary. After that encounter i was like very scared. Ok maybe just a little scared but a bit of excitement. Because now at least i know that dragons do exist. Ok now have to blog about another matter liao. See Ya Later!!!

Stunned on 28/6/2008

2008-06-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

OMG ... something happened happened that i almost have nightmare. OK la ... maybe I am over reacting but its really funny loh. The whole story beginnings:

I was suppose to reach school at around 12.30pm but i woke up at around 9am than feel very tired so didn't meet with Roy and company to eat breakfast at 11am. Throughout the whole 3 hours at home, i was using my computer and before that, i found out that my councilor badge was gone. So i was looking high and low but cannot find. Than i became even more sian cause nothing to do. Time flies when you are doing something that interest you so before i knew it, the time was already 11.50am. I quickly changed into my school attire and get everything ready and than left home.

I took bus 88 and was thinking that i will be late but ended up i was on time. Reach school at around 12.20pm than went to find Miss Mo. As we were looking for Miss Mo, we found out that she was already at the foyer looking for us. So she told us to take those who are quite weak to practice at 1 corner.So we went through the song Veedu. Than our bus came and we found out that Syafiq was not here yet so we called him and he said he still quite far away. So we had no choice but to ask him to cabbed all the way down to the platform itself. So we set off to the don't know what theatre at the place near the platform.

Reach that place at around 1.40pm++. Well we were not the 1st few schools who reached there but we reached before Woodgrove. But than i saw Siglap was already here and so i asked Atiqah about the cake than she replied in a very angry manner," Ya! The cake is at the Ice-cream stall!" Than i looked at Masuri and ask her wat happened than she said that she is in a very bad mood. Hearing that, i quickly avoid her in case she scream at me. Than Woodgrove arrived and than Jade and all leaders ask us to go practice.

After awhile, Eden told me, Melissa (St Margret) and Julia (Queenstown) to follow him. He said that he need our help to teach some people the Singapore Cheer so he will have to 'steal' us for awhile. We also noticed that he also bought a cake for Miss Sylvia but his is a very big 1. So we followed him all the way to the VIP area at the platform than we followed down to a small place where this group of people from some dance thingy from the military are hanging around. I remember seeing those people performing at the MINDEF showcase. So what we were suppose to do was to help Eden in demonstrating the moves while he teach. After about 30min, he walk us back to the theatre.

When i reached the place, i saw all leaders slacking in front of all the NDP dancers so i went over and found out that they were doing the banner and not slacking. I joined the Montfortians and slack around for awhile.After around 15mins of slacking, the d-lunch was here and so we joined our school to eat. While we were eating, some leaders are practicing the dance move in front of the whole NDP dancers and Montfort was like sitting down, enjoy the food and watching them dance.

After d-lunch, it was already around 4.30pm and we saw Ms Sylvia walked towards us and i quickly tell Jade. At the same time, Miss Sim was also making announcement that we wil have to pack up and leave for the platform. So Jade went up to her and ask if we can have a little bit more time to perform the surprise. I think she agreed because Jade was calling all leaders to get ready. So we performed 'Bye Bye Bye'. And after that she told me to take the banner but she go and talk about the cake so i was like what am i suppose to do? Cake or banner? Than she ask me to take the cake. I ran to the Ice-cream cake shop and ask for the cake. At first, the shopkeeper was suspecting that the cake was not mine so i tell him its a four-clover shop's cake. Than he took the cake out from the fridge and i was like asking him to help me put the chocolate heart with the words 'Happy 60th Birthday Ms McCully' onto the cake. Than i have to quickly take the cake to reappear at the theatre to give it to Ms Sylvia. Than Ms Sylvia was so happy that she gave me 2 kisses and i was like ... umm ... nothing to say. Than everyone was like cheering
and singing the Birthday song. They sang it a total of 3 times. 1st was before i could even reach the cake. 2nd was when i was moving in with the cake. The last time was i requested cause the candle was just lit. So after the cake each school presented the flowers and than me, Ying Wei and Chu Rui was suppose to give the banner. Chu Rui give Ms Sylvia, Ying Wei give Eden and I give Mr Lennie but his not there so I passed it to Ms Lim. After that we had to rush to the platform and than Chong En was saying that Wa! Anthony ... you spent $35 for 2 kisses ... not bad.

Haiz ... I think now the whole 380-strong choir knows my name cause when we were at the choir stand, the St. Margret girl that sat beside me called me to move AND SHE CALLED MY NAME. I was like how she know my name arh? Haiz. Anyway after the performance, we were suppose to sit and wait below the platform until 7pm++. When we were suppose to move, we all stood up and a St. Margret girl who was quite small sized banged me and than she kept on apologizing. Than i can hear all those St. Margret girls was like laughing and laughing and i don't know who did it but some of them keep on tapping me on the shoulder. Than i think i heard one of them say, "I wanna hug him." Than someone replied, "Don't want la. Here got alot of people." Than another reply, "Never mind i help you block." Upon hearing that, i walked quickly to avoid that from happening but while we were waiting to climb the stairs, someone, i don't know who, HUG ME FROM BEHIND. I was like WTH ... than i looked back, looking very stunned and awkward, than this small size girl, i think she is trying to joke around, did the sign of the '8 letter 3 word 1 meaning' to me. Those experienced people will know what i mean. Than my reaction was ... DIAO. Than i hear laughter again. After that they did not disturb me anymore.

So we went up to the platform for the finale, and we saw the fire works. After that the chairman said that we will have to practice the finale again. So people in front of the choir are all moving off. Choir sat down and started playing bomb. After 5min, Miss Mo called me and ask me to stop them from continuing. I shout at the top of my voice, "Shut up. We don't bomb liao. They bomb us we don't care. Montfort keep quiet can liao." Than everyone was like very stunned and other schools did not believe that they will listen to me so they all bomb Montfort. At first i was sure that someone will sure bomb them back but what took me back was that Montfort was all silence. Than the other schools was going BOOO!!!!!!!! Than i received 1nd phone call from Miss Mo saying that Montfort did a good job and other teachers was very impressed by us. After that we were release and we all started to walk and board the bus back to school.

When we reached school, I told Miss Mo and Han Inn the St. Margret stuff than they give me a look that i expected. After that we went Mac than we went home.

Hi ... This is the birth of my new blog; A new life

2008-06-17T09:01:00.001-07:00

Hi. This is my new blog and i maybe using this blog more often than the other blog of mine. So, this mark a new beginning and a new 'life' for me. Hope you enjoy reading.